Friday, April 30, 2004
Finally!! Over and done with... for now at least....
Woohoo!! mid sems are officially over for me!!! Cant believe my ITS(info, technology and sys) was so easy! she virtually took all of the Qns from the practice quizzes she put online! What a nice lecturer!! An efficient 1 too! The results were out within a day! and i got 9.5/10! haha! thanks to my frnds who told me ITS is such a easy unit to take!!
And MA(management accting) mid sem results out 2day too. I got 76/100! Really cant believe my luck, I only had confidence in under 60% of the qns, and at least 10-20 qns I shaded all "C"! haha! jumping for joy now! was hoping to scrap thru with a pass, n i got this! haha!
oh, after my previous entry, some frnds were telling me that Xiaxue's blog is actually quite popular back home. So its kinda like a online column eh?? so now I have Sumiko Tan to read on Straits Times, and Xiaxue on Blog. Not that both are of the same kinda content, but juz that both are interesting and insightful, that it keeps me reading~~
As for the easter hols foto, I'll be posting them up 2moro~~ Enjoy ur days every1~~~~~
And MA(management accting) mid sem results out 2day too. I got 76/100! Really cant believe my luck, I only had confidence in under 60% of the qns, and at least 10-20 qns I shaded all "C"! haha! jumping for joy now! was hoping to scrap thru with a pass, n i got this! haha!
oh, after my previous entry, some frnds were telling me that Xiaxue's blog is actually quite popular back home. So its kinda like a online column eh?? so now I have Sumiko Tan to read on Straits Times, and Xiaxue on Blog. Not that both are of the same kinda content, but juz that both are interesting and insightful, that it keeps me reading~~
As for the easter hols foto, I'll be posting them up 2moro~~ Enjoy ur days every1~~~~~
# posted by emoboy @ 4/30/2004 11:06:00 pm
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Wednesday, April 28, 2004
Thanks~~~~~
Ok, an update on some stuff is in order,
-Am I still in the dumps??
Yes
-Wat can caring frnds do??
I dunno, coz so far cheering up, consoling, etcetc by frnds isnt working.
-Should I be left alone??
hmm... not sure, but dun really have to do anything, juz let me be?? Everything's normal, its nothing much, prob juz PMS(I'm a weird guy...)
-Will I commit suicide?
U wish! I'm not dat stupid, esp when its juz a mood thingy.... & besides, I reckon I dun have the guts to do it either....
I really wanna thank my frnds for the concern they've shown. I've realised that some of u out there are nice pple(not that I tot u were horrible b4). Altho there isnt really much outward expression of care, juz the simple act of asking if I was fine was sufficient.
Ok, so u prob din help much to pull me outta depression, but at least I knew u cared.... and I noe there are pple who are actually reading my Blog~ haha, tot every1 was dead coz no1 ever comments. Thanks again!! Life is still very much the same, no matter how I perceive it 2b, it still goes on rite??
still struggling to study.... but I'm still online regularly. Guess wat, stumbled upon some Singtel blogging contest thingy, called my dreamd8, a couple of mths back. Not sure wat it is, but seems like some elimination contest to see whos blog is the most popular. From the looks of it, sure seems interestnig. But as usual, the internet attracts lotsa queer pple, and there are actually pple who are asking the gir bloggers for Hp no. wahahaha!! Prob the same kinda pple who go in IRC like:
"18m, tall dark handsome, looking for GF"
"I've got a car, can drive u around. Msg me if u looking for bf"
"9123###, msg me if ur feeling bored and wanna chat, girs only"
haha, something along those lines. Haven been on irc for ages, but that was wat I recall. IRC has degenerated to despos crying out in public chatrooms like #singapore #teens etcetc....
Tolong la! You are better off trying to hit on girs on the streets.
oh, anw, the pt is, I chanced upon this blog by Xiaxue. hhhmmm... wait.... maybe I'm like one of those despos??? hhmmm.... NAY! Anw Xiaxue's blog interesting!! Quite alot of stuff toked about, and rather open. Some serious stuff, but mostly funny digs at life's crap. Some of u will definitely find it offensive coz her blog is extremely outspoken, littered generously with explicit vulgarities. haha! But its her blog rite?? she can write wat she wans, thats her right. & dats how u'd wan things 2b too. I've dug out this bookmark that was buried in my Favourites folder, and now I have a new pasttime~~ haha! & it seems lotsa pple are reading her blog~~~ Its popular~~ so wat the heck rite.
Actually, have a couple more stuff to blog about, but really wanna stop myself here.... haven been blogging about anything interesting lately.... and realised that my Blog's actually getting worse in a sense... several entries are senseless ramblings... which doesnt matter, but juz want it 2b more organised?? more sensible?? dunno wat I want really......
Anw stillhave 2 stupid papers on Fri. So I'll stop for now. I've been uploading a couple of fotos taken during the Easter break, those horse-back riding pics. So I'll prob post them up 2nite or 2moro. That'll prob interest some of u who can be bothered to read(Ed, for sure). CYA!
-Am I still in the dumps??
Yes
-Wat can caring frnds do??
I dunno, coz so far cheering up, consoling, etcetc by frnds isnt working.
-Should I be left alone??
hmm... not sure, but dun really have to do anything, juz let me be?? Everything's normal, its nothing much, prob juz PMS(I'm a weird guy...)
-Will I commit suicide?
U wish! I'm not dat stupid, esp when its juz a mood thingy.... & besides, I reckon I dun have the guts to do it either....
I really wanna thank my frnds for the concern they've shown. I've realised that some of u out there are nice pple(not that I tot u were horrible b4). Altho there isnt really much outward expression of care, juz the simple act of asking if I was fine was sufficient.
Ok, so u prob din help much to pull me outta depression, but at least I knew u cared.... and I noe there are pple who are actually reading my Blog~ haha, tot every1 was dead coz no1 ever comments. Thanks again!! Life is still very much the same, no matter how I perceive it 2b, it still goes on rite??
still struggling to study.... but I'm still online regularly. Guess wat, stumbled upon some Singtel blogging contest thingy, called my dreamd8, a couple of mths back. Not sure wat it is, but seems like some elimination contest to see whos blog is the most popular. From the looks of it, sure seems interestnig. But as usual, the internet attracts lotsa queer pple, and there are actually pple who are asking the gir bloggers for Hp no. wahahaha!! Prob the same kinda pple who go in IRC like:
"18m, tall dark handsome, looking for GF"
"I've got a car, can drive u around. Msg me if u looking for bf"
"9123###, msg me if ur feeling bored and wanna chat, girs only"
haha, something along those lines. Haven been on irc for ages, but that was wat I recall. IRC has degenerated to despos crying out in public chatrooms like #singapore #teens etcetc....
Tolong la! You are better off trying to hit on girs on the streets.
oh, anw, the pt is, I chanced upon this blog by Xiaxue. hhhmmm... wait.... maybe I'm like one of those despos??? hhmmm.... NAY! Anw Xiaxue's blog interesting!! Quite alot of stuff toked about, and rather open. Some serious stuff, but mostly funny digs at life's crap. Some of u will definitely find it offensive coz her blog is extremely outspoken, littered generously with explicit vulgarities. haha! But its her blog rite?? she can write wat she wans, thats her right. & dats how u'd wan things 2b too. I've dug out this bookmark that was buried in my Favourites folder, and now I have a new pasttime~~ haha! & it seems lotsa pple are reading her blog~~~ Its popular~~ so wat the heck rite.
Actually, have a couple more stuff to blog about, but really wanna stop myself here.... haven been blogging about anything interesting lately.... and realised that my Blog's actually getting worse in a sense... several entries are senseless ramblings... which doesnt matter, but juz want it 2b more organised?? more sensible?? dunno wat I want really......
Anw stillhave 2 stupid papers on Fri. So I'll stop for now. I've been uploading a couple of fotos taken during the Easter break, those horse-back riding pics. So I'll prob post them up 2nite or 2moro. That'll prob interest some of u who can be bothered to read(Ed, for sure). CYA!
# posted by emoboy @ 4/28/2004 02:45:00 pm
Saturday, April 24, 2004
Something about Mary~~~~
haha! 1 that S'pore lacks when compared to Australia, openess in censorship. Juz watched There's Something About Mary last nite, on TV. Was only expecting 1 of the cut scenes, haha! But there was more!
1. Image of Ben Stiller's "nuts and frank" caught in the zipper, when he went over to Mary's hse to pick her up for the Prom~~ haha! disgusting!
2. While Matt Dillon was spying on Mary, a scene showed him seeing her old hsemate's saggy boobs thru his bino~~ OMG!!! I'm scarred 4eva!
3. Ben Stiller jerking off, and Mary eventually using the "hair gel"
So if anytime u wonder why some comdedies actually dun last for over 1 1/2hrs, its coz of the Censorship Board~ Life it would kill for them to juz let loose a little~~
There're lotsa good stuff on free-to-air TV here, at least compared to Singapore. U definitely wun get Queer Eye, L world, Sex and the City, and lotsa films w/o cuts on free-to-air TV in S'pore. But I admit I do miss some local S'pore TV..... I rarely hear the goggle box sprouting Chinese or Singlish, no more silly S'porean sitcoms, where the yellow-boot contractor speaks in his heartlander accent, or Chinese MTVs playing non-stop on SCV.... tho SBS channel would occasionally screen Asian films during late nites, but its rare........ I totally have no clue as to wats on S'pore TV now.... losing touch with culture at home... haha, not that TV defines and encompasses everything, but it is a very large part of my life la. it also makes life here more pleasent, kinda like a consolation~~
1. Image of Ben Stiller's "nuts and frank" caught in the zipper, when he went over to Mary's hse to pick her up for the Prom~~ haha! disgusting!
2. While Matt Dillon was spying on Mary, a scene showed him seeing her old hsemate's saggy boobs thru his bino~~ OMG!!! I'm scarred 4eva!
3. Ben Stiller jerking off, and Mary eventually using the "hair gel"
So if anytime u wonder why some comdedies actually dun last for over 1 1/2hrs, its coz of the Censorship Board~ Life it would kill for them to juz let loose a little~~
There're lotsa good stuff on free-to-air TV here, at least compared to Singapore. U definitely wun get Queer Eye, L world, Sex and the City, and lotsa films w/o cuts on free-to-air TV in S'pore. But I admit I do miss some local S'pore TV..... I rarely hear the goggle box sprouting Chinese or Singlish, no more silly S'porean sitcoms, where the yellow-boot contractor speaks in his heartlander accent, or Chinese MTVs playing non-stop on SCV.... tho SBS channel would occasionally screen Asian films during late nites, but its rare........ I totally have no clue as to wats on S'pore TV now.... losing touch with culture at home... haha, not that TV defines and encompasses everything, but it is a very large part of my life la. it also makes life here more pleasent, kinda like a consolation~~
# posted by emoboy @ 4/24/2004 06:10:00 pm
Thursday, April 22, 2004
so sick.............
sighs... getting sick of life as it is...... seriously think I'm about to enter into some kinda quarter-life crisis. almost every min of the day, my minds being bogged by this daze..... "wat the hell am i doing?" "why in the world am I where I am now??"
perhaps juz another depression mood... hopefully 1 that'll go away soon...
Dun u get bother by these tots?? Suddenly, life's gonna change as I noe it... I'm gonna step out into the cruel world in a few yrs time, trying to live by the rule of "survival of the fittest", and start to wonder, is life gonna be like dat 4eva?? isnt there something that can be done differently??
When I realised that its juz me against everything else, I begin to resign to my fate.... perhaps thats all life is about.... where can I head to?? Does it matter? Juz go with the flow, or go against it and die trying......... There are pple who've chose not to let life get the better of them.... Yet, not every1 manages to do so.....
Its 23yrs of emotional and mental shackles to break..... Beliefs and values that were once so true, but so obsolete now... Its no longer juz the survival of the fittest but also of the smartest & of the most cunning. Where would humility, sincerity and honesty ever fit in?
And how can any1 ever clearly draw the line between having principles, and being plain stubborn? How would I ever noe that if I change, I'm actually actually for the better? Whos to say its not for the worse? Whos to judge me? My peers, outsiders, or my own conscience......... How can I even trust myself, when I might be trying to justify my reluctance to step outta my comfort zone with the phrase "I chose to be myself". Change they say, but never would they speak of the reason to it....
Its getting on my nerves.... makes me even more grouchy than ever..... juz dun feel like interacting at all..... If u ever see me, and I dun look good, juz pretend everything's alright and its still fine to say "hi" k? Juz cut all the patronising small tok.... Not that I dun feel like toking, or have anythign personal against any1, but its juz me.....
Think I'm losing my pt here..... guess juz another load of ramblings from my empty mind.......
perhaps juz another depression mood... hopefully 1 that'll go away soon...
Dun u get bother by these tots?? Suddenly, life's gonna change as I noe it... I'm gonna step out into the cruel world in a few yrs time, trying to live by the rule of "survival of the fittest", and start to wonder, is life gonna be like dat 4eva?? isnt there something that can be done differently??
When I realised that its juz me against everything else, I begin to resign to my fate.... perhaps thats all life is about.... where can I head to?? Does it matter? Juz go with the flow, or go against it and die trying......... There are pple who've chose not to let life get the better of them.... Yet, not every1 manages to do so.....
Its 23yrs of emotional and mental shackles to break..... Beliefs and values that were once so true, but so obsolete now... Its no longer juz the survival of the fittest but also of the smartest & of the most cunning. Where would humility, sincerity and honesty ever fit in?
And how can any1 ever clearly draw the line between having principles, and being plain stubborn? How would I ever noe that if I change, I'm actually actually for the better? Whos to say its not for the worse? Whos to judge me? My peers, outsiders, or my own conscience......... How can I even trust myself, when I might be trying to justify my reluctance to step outta my comfort zone with the phrase "I chose to be myself". Change they say, but never would they speak of the reason to it....
Its getting on my nerves.... makes me even more grouchy than ever..... juz dun feel like interacting at all..... If u ever see me, and I dun look good, juz pretend everything's alright and its still fine to say "hi" k? Juz cut all the patronising small tok.... Not that I dun feel like toking, or have anythign personal against any1, but its juz me.....
Think I'm losing my pt here..... guess juz another load of ramblings from my empty mind.......
# posted by emoboy @ 4/22/2004 10:28:00 pm
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Such a put off
This was in my mind the whole time when i was in sch 2day..... There's definitely someting wrong with my face..... Its that natural expression that I wear everyday and every min.... Its like my default expression is grouchy and grumpy.... And it kinda gives pple the 1st impression that I'm unfriendly or hostile.... Definitely works against me, coz pple wun even feel like continuing a conversation with me~~~ This added to the fact that I'm not dat good a conversationalist with new pple, juz makes me a less approachable person.
Not that its anything bad, coz I realised last sem that this kinda filtered out some unwanted elements in my life. Some "leachers" never ever asked me any academic stuff(ok, maybe its juz coz I dun look studious enuff), whereas my frnd who took the exact same combi of units was constantly hounded by them. So it does help to some degree of superficiality that I personally associate with "hi-bye" acquaintances. But the flip side is that this default expression of mine is quite a burden when it comes to making new frnds. It dawned upon me that I shdnt look at eye-candies in sch too much, coz they'll prob be thinking "why the hell is that jerk giving me such a hostile look!? I din offend him!? NutCase!". So in the end, it juz eliminates any chances of me even knowing any eye-candy. haha! Not that it really matters, but its juz a tot, which is quite true. I wun stand a chance if I ever try to pick up any gir(most of u noe I wun, juz not me)who catches my fancy. argh!!!!
Am I gonna change...? Nay, not anytime soon.... I'll smile when I want to, when I feel like it, otherwise its juz the default face thats gonna be shown to the world~~~ and naturally, it wun affect my frnds, since they'd know that this is juz me, being who I am. 1st impressions usually fade when u get to know a person. For now, there's really nothing that makes me wanna change.... noting strong enuff at least....
& mid sems approaching.... Wed & Thurs.... yet I dun feel any sense of urgency.... Panic did set in for a few mins, but soon after I managed to suppress it somehow.... Its this "heck care" attitude of mine these days..... Not sure why its back again tho.... I tot I had left it behind after entering army and coming into Uni. Perhaps theres some void in my life, so The
Attitude is juz filling up that space.... or maybe I'm juz lacking determination this sem..... watever that case, nothing much i can do now.... too late....
To all my frnds in S'pore, glad some of u in SMU finished exams. Enjoy the break~~ Those in NTU NUS SIM whose exams are approaching, or are halfway thru it, hang in there~~ esp the guys, coz there's still reservist!! those who are not studying for the moment, try not to lament about how boring working life is.... Its gonna get worse, so juz make the best of it... Life only gets worse if u think the future gonna be better, coz u're juz having too high an expectation~~~
Not that its anything bad, coz I realised last sem that this kinda filtered out some unwanted elements in my life. Some "leachers" never ever asked me any academic stuff(ok, maybe its juz coz I dun look studious enuff), whereas my frnd who took the exact same combi of units was constantly hounded by them. So it does help to some degree of superficiality that I personally associate with "hi-bye" acquaintances. But the flip side is that this default expression of mine is quite a burden when it comes to making new frnds. It dawned upon me that I shdnt look at eye-candies in sch too much, coz they'll prob be thinking "why the hell is that jerk giving me such a hostile look!? I din offend him!? NutCase!". So in the end, it juz eliminates any chances of me even knowing any eye-candy. haha! Not that it really matters, but its juz a tot, which is quite true. I wun stand a chance if I ever try to pick up any gir(most of u noe I wun, juz not me)who catches my fancy. argh!!!!
Am I gonna change...? Nay, not anytime soon.... I'll smile when I want to, when I feel like it, otherwise its juz the default face thats gonna be shown to the world~~~ and naturally, it wun affect my frnds, since they'd know that this is juz me, being who I am. 1st impressions usually fade when u get to know a person. For now, there's really nothing that makes me wanna change.... noting strong enuff at least....
& mid sems approaching.... Wed & Thurs.... yet I dun feel any sense of urgency.... Panic did set in for a few mins, but soon after I managed to suppress it somehow.... Its this "heck care" attitude of mine these days..... Not sure why its back again tho.... I tot I had left it behind after entering army and coming into Uni. Perhaps theres some void in my life, so The
Attitude is juz filling up that space.... or maybe I'm juz lacking determination this sem..... watever that case, nothing much i can do now.... too late....
To all my frnds in S'pore, glad some of u in SMU finished exams. Enjoy the break~~ Those in NTU NUS SIM whose exams are approaching, or are halfway thru it, hang in there~~ esp the guys, coz there's still reservist!! those who are not studying for the moment, try not to lament about how boring working life is.... Its gonna get worse, so juz make the best of it... Life only gets worse if u think the future gonna be better, coz u're juz having too high an expectation~~~
# posted by emoboy @ 4/20/2004 01:35:00 pm
Sunday, April 18, 2004
ooppss~~
hmm, aloy pointed out to me that the mp3 I've posted up, "uptown girl", weezer, is bogus! hmm... oh well, juz goes to show kazaa really has lotsa crap beeing shared out. anw, gonna change the song. I believe most of u have heard the cover version done by Counting Crows.... This is the original, and she sang the words as "they paint paradise, and put up a parking lot" instead of "they paint paradise, and put up a fucking lie"~~ haha, and I kept thinking why would any radio station allow a song with the words "fucking lie" be played~~
# posted by emoboy @ 4/18/2004 01:14:00 am
Thursday, April 15, 2004
lost while finding......
sighs.... the title pretty much sums up wat I'm feeling.... still dunno where I'm headed..... this'll prob fade away in a few days... but it has engulfed my heart.... killing my mood to do anything.....
anw, I've managed to embed music into the blog page w/o using Powerwebmusic.com, which is really irritating with all the popups and all..... So the nex time u visit this Cubicle of the Mindless, do remember to check out the menu of the right. "Song of the Moment" would have a player console there, and there shd b a song there. Its only gonna be 300kb or so, so the quality will be mediocre. I'll prob put up songs that I'm listening to, my fav songs, and a couple of oldies.
anw, I've managed to embed music into the blog page w/o using Powerwebmusic.com, which is really irritating with all the popups and all..... So the nex time u visit this Cubicle of the Mindless, do remember to check out the menu of the right. "Song of the Moment" would have a player console there, and there shd b a song there. Its only gonna be 300kb or so, so the quality will be mediocre. I'll prob put up songs that I'm listening to, my fav songs, and a couple of oldies.
# posted by emoboy @ 4/15/2004 04:08:00 pm
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
Incoherent Tots..........
This isnt gonna make any sense... but its my blog, so I can do wat I wan, ====>>
This has been in my head for the past few days.... Its probably normal..... but then again, maybe I'm paranoid.... all of a sudden, I'm starting to miss Singapore.... U might think its weird, coz din this guy once said before he left for Perth that he's not 1 who'd be home sick dat easily... That was true, coz every time I've been away from home, be it when i was in the army(2.5yrs), overseas military exercises(3Xs), or juz long trips abroad, the tot of home being the place I wanna be nv crossed my mind.
It's not that I love travelling, or I enjoyed military training, but its juz dat home was nv at the back of my mind. I was either enjoying my hols, or juz sick of the torture I was suffering from, but nv once was it because i missed home.... prob for the 1st time, I started to feel that I dun belong here.... Perth.... juz seems like a place that I'll be stuck in for another 2yrs....
Somehow I have thi feeling that I'm getting sick of this place, but its only been less than 1yr, so am I really in the position to say that?? There should be more crap out there that I've yet to experience.... Perhaps its juz all the frnds that I have back home, family, memories, and all the time I've spent growing there.....
Its not like I'm totally alone out here in perth w/o frnds, but I'm not with too much company either.... This is 1 thing I've yet to adapt to, and something my frnds still dun really comprehend.... My problem with acquaintances..... Despite how hostile and unfriendly I may look, making and meeting new frnds isnt such a repulsive thing to me... but I still hate making too many hi-bye frnds.... The reason being, sometimes I'm juz not in the mood to bother greeting pple, yet because of the fact that I somehow noe this person, I gotta say "hi" coz I'm not close enuff wanna let him/her noe I'm feeling lousy..........
hhmm... I think I prob lost some of u somewhere, but the pt is, sometimes I juz hate to make the effort to make small talk.... I'm fine with chatting with new frnds, or acquaintances, coz u gotta start somewhere right? & from there perhaps develop a stronger frnship. Yet ther are times when i wanna be left alone, when I only wan my inner circle of frnds there, when I'm really sick of things, and need to let off some steam....Dun u have that feeling too?? Yar, u can tell me that I can do wat I wan, and not bother about pple, but then later, pple(ie acquaitances) would come asking wats wrong. & I dun wanna justify myself, and soon or later, they'll juz think I have attitude... seriously, some pple already have that impression of me..... which is probably why pple rarely even bother to try to tok to me.... Its my face i tell u, that wadda-hell-u-want-with-me face.....
aiya... think I'm not making sense..... but dun care la..... life still goes on, the feeling will pass, still gotta carry on studying, and exams will come.... someday I might juz turn my back on civilisation and be a hermit... perhapsperhapsperhaps....
JACKY WU VS Jacky Wu Lookalike Bangladeshi
Received this from a frnd a couple of mths back, and finally bothered to share with u guys~~ U might already have seen it somewhere, or dun even noe this person. He's a famous Taiwanese variety show compere, Jacky Wu, who usually cracks lame jokes, but its the stupidity thats funny~~ haha, imagine him, being a Bangala! at a construction sitE!!! hahahaha! the building will nv be complete!!
This has been in my head for the past few days.... Its probably normal..... but then again, maybe I'm paranoid.... all of a sudden, I'm starting to miss Singapore.... U might think its weird, coz din this guy once said before he left for Perth that he's not 1 who'd be home sick dat easily... That was true, coz every time I've been away from home, be it when i was in the army(2.5yrs), overseas military exercises(3Xs), or juz long trips abroad, the tot of home being the place I wanna be nv crossed my mind.
It's not that I love travelling, or I enjoyed military training, but its juz dat home was nv at the back of my mind. I was either enjoying my hols, or juz sick of the torture I was suffering from, but nv once was it because i missed home.... prob for the 1st time, I started to feel that I dun belong here.... Perth.... juz seems like a place that I'll be stuck in for another 2yrs....
Somehow I have thi feeling that I'm getting sick of this place, but its only been less than 1yr, so am I really in the position to say that?? There should be more crap out there that I've yet to experience.... Perhaps its juz all the frnds that I have back home, family, memories, and all the time I've spent growing there.....
Its not like I'm totally alone out here in perth w/o frnds, but I'm not with too much company either.... This is 1 thing I've yet to adapt to, and something my frnds still dun really comprehend.... My problem with acquaintances..... Despite how hostile and unfriendly I may look, making and meeting new frnds isnt such a repulsive thing to me... but I still hate making too many hi-bye frnds.... The reason being, sometimes I'm juz not in the mood to bother greeting pple, yet because of the fact that I somehow noe this person, I gotta say "hi" coz I'm not close enuff wanna let him/her noe I'm feeling lousy..........
hhmm... I think I prob lost some of u somewhere, but the pt is, sometimes I juz hate to make the effort to make small talk.... I'm fine with chatting with new frnds, or acquaintances, coz u gotta start somewhere right? & from there perhaps develop a stronger frnship. Yet ther are times when i wanna be left alone, when I only wan my inner circle of frnds there, when I'm really sick of things, and need to let off some steam....Dun u have that feeling too?? Yar, u can tell me that I can do wat I wan, and not bother about pple, but then later, pple(ie acquaitances) would come asking wats wrong. & I dun wanna justify myself, and soon or later, they'll juz think I have attitude... seriously, some pple already have that impression of me..... which is probably why pple rarely even bother to try to tok to me.... Its my face i tell u, that wadda-hell-u-want-with-me face.....
aiya... think I'm not making sense..... but dun care la..... life still goes on, the feeling will pass, still gotta carry on studying, and exams will come.... someday I might juz turn my back on civilisation and be a hermit... perhapsperhapsperhaps....
# posted by emoboy @ 4/13/2004 06:36:00 pm
Monday, April 12, 2004
OH MY! 见鬼了!
JACKY WU VS Jacky Wu Lookalike Bangladeshi
Received this from a frnd a couple of mths back, and finally bothered to share with u guys~~ U might already have seen it somewhere, or dun even noe this person. He's a famous Taiwanese variety show compere, Jacky Wu, who usually cracks lame jokes, but its the stupidity thats funny~~ haha, imagine him, being a Bangala! at a construction sitE!!! hahahaha! the building will nv be complete!!
# posted by emoboy @ 4/12/2004 11:55:00 pm
Sunday, April 11, 2004
Some fotos from Convo
Juz got back from horse riding in Joondalup ~~~ fun! but more on that later, coz i haven gotten the pics yet~
gonna post up some pics taken at Shaohong's convocation... pretty much a ceremony where they give u ur graduation certificate, and there's a reception where free food is provided for ur frnds and families, and also where pple take fotos, loads of them~~~ I guess this is one of the few days dat a person graduating will feel that he/she is the centre of attraction, coz all ur frnds suddenly treat u like a celebrity, wanting to take fotos with u.... haha, cheap thrill rite~!
The Graduate Himself~~ so BUSY!!!
ME and Shaohong~
someday it'll be my turn~~~
Group Fotos
gonna post up some pics taken at Shaohong's convocation... pretty much a ceremony where they give u ur graduation certificate, and there's a reception where free food is provided for ur frnds and families, and also where pple take fotos, loads of them~~~ I guess this is one of the few days dat a person graduating will feel that he/she is the centre of attraction, coz all ur frnds suddenly treat u like a celebrity, wanting to take fotos with u.... haha, cheap thrill rite~!
The Graduate Himself~~ so BUSY!!!
ME and Shaohong~
someday it'll be my turn~~~
Group Fotos
# posted by emoboy @ 4/11/2004 05:14:00 pm
Saturday, April 10, 2004
1st activity of the Easter Hols
Nothing much to say 2day, except report about wat i did.... but a little something at the end, if u have the patience to read..
so here goes==>
Went to FreO(frementle) 2day.... Waited till my mood waned...... Turned out sernwei went to pickup some frnds, and couldnt meet us at 10++ am as expected, as optus failed to deliver his SMS to me.... Even their system sleeps in the day.... So much for Singaporean efficiency(in case some of u dunno, Optus is owned by Singtel).
the market was quite routine, the usual stuff like clothings, accessories etcetc... However, 2day was prob a good day to walk around FreO, lotsa street performers. Not sure if it was Prosh week, or juz coz its Easter, but it doesnt really matter. The whole good thing was u get to see interesting stuff that u rarely see in S'pore, tho its pretty common here. Drama kings, jugglers, a senior piped piper, man on solo stilts juggling balls and knives, moving statues....... and they're not without their audiences. audiences' response and spontaneity do play a part too. If the performers are great, but the pple have no interest, wheres all the fun!? So far, the best street act I've seen here is that guy in Perth city, who dancing even smoother than MJ.. he moonwalks like as if he was born there! hahaHe has enuff charisma that allows him to form thick human walls each time he performs, people of all ages and both gender, but he definitely enjoys lotsa female attention. Good dancers often do, same goes for good singers, good lookers, good talkers~~~
My body started getting tired as the clock approached 5pm.... chamz... Think i'm really getting more lethargic each day... but still went with david and raymond to see iris sing for some easter thingy, & realised its a mass. Nv been to a mass for at least 10yrs... Brings back memories from pri sch.... Could tell that the event was somehow not perfectly coordinated, coz the choir singing was a little off tempo sometimes, and a little off key for some notes. The speaker volume was kinda low too..... But it got better, and the last singer was the best, pwrful voice.... perhaps every1 juz likes to leave the best for the last. oh well, heard this is their 1st attempt, so guess its quite a good effort. If i was to do it, it'll prob be alot worse.
After reluctantly bidding the nachos(tidbits at the mass) farewell, we had dinner at sernwei's place. Had the opportunity to share some of his family bliss. His mom and wife cooked~~ really had that nice "homely" feeling to it.
and we saw a couple of Infernal Affairs spoof clip!! hahaha! imagine Tony Leung, Andy Lau, Anthony Wong, Eirc Tsang etc all speaking in Hokkien dialect, and sprouting vulgarities like no1's business!! haha, real good quality work by some Taiwanese bums!
~~~some tots 2day~~~
This is kinda about my tots on getting involved in a relationship... Coz heard from frnds that qiuling say i look stressed coz every1 has a gf, n i dun..... and earlier in the afternoon, she kept laughing about it! piangz!!
even sandy and sernwei's mom were saying "yar, she say u nv come with us for dinner coz muz b in ur room crying, coz every1 got gf liao~~"
Sighs... i guess she's saying juz for fun, not being serious about it, both bro n sis same pattern!! argh!
The truth is, i wun ever feel "stress" or "pressure" if i dun have a gf.... Do I look like I'm at the age where not having some1 as a gf is all that impt?? or that marriage is a "if-not-now-or-soon-then-maybe-never-ever"??? sighs....
I do envy all my frnds, coz while I ended my previous relationship on a rather bad note, I still have that longing for love.... But it doesnt mean I wanna get attached juz for the sake of it... rite?? Since secsch, and JC, its nv been the case.... Wateva crushes i had werent motivated by peer pressure at all.... I maybe be a little of a loser, but not to that level... not that low....
Think for those who are single now, but been in relationships b4 wuold understand.... somehow when u see couples, u'll juz start to reminisce a little about the past, of howu were once in love, had some1 who really care, and was there for u.... but it doesnt mean that the sight of couples is gonna motivate u to set ur resolution of the month as "finding a gf/bf"
okok, I admit I always admire loads of eye candy, but nothing wrong with that rite!! How can u not look!??? haha
hhmmm... well, maybe thats y I was into my 1st relationship only at the age of 21?? perhaps all these "if-it happens-it happens" logic is juz a cover-up for my shy nature?? perhaps perhaps perhaps
so here goes==>
Went to FreO(frementle) 2day.... Waited till my mood waned...... Turned out sernwei went to pickup some frnds, and couldnt meet us at 10++ am as expected, as optus failed to deliver his SMS to me.... Even their system sleeps in the day.... So much for Singaporean efficiency(in case some of u dunno, Optus is owned by Singtel).
the market was quite routine, the usual stuff like clothings, accessories etcetc... However, 2day was prob a good day to walk around FreO, lotsa street performers. Not sure if it was Prosh week, or juz coz its Easter, but it doesnt really matter. The whole good thing was u get to see interesting stuff that u rarely see in S'pore, tho its pretty common here. Drama kings, jugglers, a senior piped piper, man on solo stilts juggling balls and knives, moving statues....... and they're not without their audiences. audiences' response and spontaneity do play a part too. If the performers are great, but the pple have no interest, wheres all the fun!? So far, the best street act I've seen here is that guy in Perth city, who dancing even smoother than MJ.. he moonwalks like as if he was born there! hahaHe has enuff charisma that allows him to form thick human walls each time he performs, people of all ages and both gender, but he definitely enjoys lotsa female attention. Good dancers often do, same goes for good singers, good lookers, good talkers~~~
My body started getting tired as the clock approached 5pm.... chamz... Think i'm really getting more lethargic each day... but still went with david and raymond to see iris sing for some easter thingy, & realised its a mass. Nv been to a mass for at least 10yrs... Brings back memories from pri sch.... Could tell that the event was somehow not perfectly coordinated, coz the choir singing was a little off tempo sometimes, and a little off key for some notes. The speaker volume was kinda low too..... But it got better, and the last singer was the best, pwrful voice.... perhaps every1 juz likes to leave the best for the last. oh well, heard this is their 1st attempt, so guess its quite a good effort. If i was to do it, it'll prob be alot worse.
After reluctantly bidding the nachos(tidbits at the mass) farewell, we had dinner at sernwei's place. Had the opportunity to share some of his family bliss. His mom and wife cooked~~ really had that nice "homely" feeling to it.
and we saw a couple of Infernal Affairs spoof clip!! hahaha! imagine Tony Leung, Andy Lau, Anthony Wong, Eirc Tsang etc all speaking in Hokkien dialect, and sprouting vulgarities like no1's business!! haha, real good quality work by some Taiwanese bums!
~~~some tots 2day~~~
This is kinda about my tots on getting involved in a relationship... Coz heard from frnds that qiuling say i look stressed coz every1 has a gf, n i dun..... and earlier in the afternoon, she kept laughing about it! piangz!!
even sandy and sernwei's mom were saying "yar, she say u nv come with us for dinner coz muz b in ur room crying, coz every1 got gf liao~~"
Sighs... i guess she's saying juz for fun, not being serious about it, both bro n sis same pattern!! argh!
The truth is, i wun ever feel "stress" or "pressure" if i dun have a gf.... Do I look like I'm at the age where not having some1 as a gf is all that impt?? or that marriage is a "if-not-now-or-soon-then-maybe-never-ever"??? sighs....
I do envy all my frnds, coz while I ended my previous relationship on a rather bad note, I still have that longing for love.... But it doesnt mean I wanna get attached juz for the sake of it... rite?? Since secsch, and JC, its nv been the case.... Wateva crushes i had werent motivated by peer pressure at all.... I maybe be a little of a loser, but not to that level... not that low....
Think for those who are single now, but been in relationships b4 wuold understand.... somehow when u see couples, u'll juz start to reminisce a little about the past, of howu were once in love, had some1 who really care, and was there for u.... but it doesnt mean that the sight of couples is gonna motivate u to set ur resolution of the month as "finding a gf/bf"
okok, I admit I always admire loads of eye candy, but nothing wrong with that rite!! How can u not look!??? haha
hhmmm... well, maybe thats y I was into my 1st relationship only at the age of 21?? perhaps all these "if-it happens-it happens" logic is juz a cover-up for my shy nature?? perhaps perhaps perhaps
# posted by emoboy @ 4/10/2004 10:32:00 pm
Friday, April 09, 2004
Searching... If there's something there in the 1st place....
Here's the thing that i wanted to post,
Had a short chat with a frnd yest, hmm, or was it the day b4..?? Anw, I mentioned that i wun be going to church this sun, and since i din go last sun as well, kinda wanted to justify for it.... Said i needed a break, coz need some time to absorb wateva i'm been listening to... and the question "wat are u searching for??" came up.... and also "how do u search if u dunno watca looking for??" hmm...
Its not an easy qns to ans, but I guess if u dunno watca searching for, u might not even start in the 1st place rite? Since u dunno watca lacking, have no notion of something out there, then u wun even do anything about it.... So if u dunno watca searching for, then its still perfectly normal rite? Since its more of having a notion, or feeling that makes u wanna search....
If I knew wat i was searching for, wouldnt that be a little weird?? If i noe wat it was, then I would have found it rite?? I would be saying "I've found it, and now i'm trying to understand it...". "Search" is probably too broad a word to describe my situation here.... Perhaps to search for something means u noe watca looking for, u have a goal/objective.... and as all of my frnds noe, I'm not dat kinda person, haha. Perhaps i'm searching for that goal.... so that i can start working 2wards it??? but that is assuming tht there is something out there in the1st place rite?? If there's nothing, then too bad.... For now, I'll juz let the part of my brain which thinks that there's a higher being out there take ctrl.....
If I dun start somewhere, I'll never start rite?? Its juz like how I got to University now... If i din make a choice of wat to study, I'd prob still be stuck in S"pore rotting my life away at home..... At least if i start somewhere, I'd have the chance to find out wats right for me, and from tere start turning aruond and find the right path? I'll nv noe if someday i juz decide that I wanna be sell sugar cane juice? Or juz be a taxi driver, get a few customers a day, and not have to stress over how much i earn?? Perhaps perhaps perhaps.
Had a short chat with a frnd yest, hmm, or was it the day b4..?? Anw, I mentioned that i wun be going to church this sun, and since i din go last sun as well, kinda wanted to justify for it.... Said i needed a break, coz need some time to absorb wateva i'm been listening to... and the question "wat are u searching for??" came up.... and also "how do u search if u dunno watca looking for??" hmm...
Its not an easy qns to ans, but I guess if u dunno watca searching for, u might not even start in the 1st place rite? Since u dunno watca lacking, have no notion of something out there, then u wun even do anything about it.... So if u dunno watca searching for, then its still perfectly normal rite? Since its more of having a notion, or feeling that makes u wanna search....
If I knew wat i was searching for, wouldnt that be a little weird?? If i noe wat it was, then I would have found it rite?? I would be saying "I've found it, and now i'm trying to understand it...". "Search" is probably too broad a word to describe my situation here.... Perhaps to search for something means u noe watca looking for, u have a goal/objective.... and as all of my frnds noe, I'm not dat kinda person, haha. Perhaps i'm searching for that goal.... so that i can start working 2wards it??? but that is assuming tht there is something out there in the1st place rite?? If there's nothing, then too bad.... For now, I'll juz let the part of my brain which thinks that there's a higher being out there take ctrl.....
If I dun start somewhere, I'll never start rite?? Its juz like how I got to University now... If i din make a choice of wat to study, I'd prob still be stuck in S"pore rotting my life away at home..... At least if i start somewhere, I'd have the chance to find out wats right for me, and from tere start turning aruond and find the right path? I'll nv noe if someday i juz decide that I wanna be sell sugar cane juice? Or juz be a taxi driver, get a few customers a day, and not have to stress over how much i earn?? Perhaps perhaps perhaps.
# posted by emoboy @ 4/09/2004 11:50:00 pm
New Look for my Blog~~~~
Heyhey!! Hows the new layout???? Take a look at how diff they look
Its not too fanciful, but at least it looks much nicer than my previous rite??
The previous kinda had queer and mismatching colors... seemed that it was neither bright nor dull.... etcetcetc.... so much for default templates by Blogspot!
haha! Anyway, I found this template online, chose it coz it isnt too loud, outstanding and AA(attract attention). hhmm... maybe u can call it boring, if ur in the mood to put me down~~~
Easter break is here.... hopefully can get some work done.... haha, but i've only made plans to play.... how sia...... the pain n turmoil a procrastinating slacker has to go thru!! ARGH!!!! Actually, I have something I wanna post... but think i'll do it later....
Its not too fanciful, but at least it looks much nicer than my previous rite??
The previous kinda had queer and mismatching colors... seemed that it was neither bright nor dull.... etcetcetc.... so much for default templates by Blogspot!
haha! Anyway, I found this template online, chose it coz it isnt too loud, outstanding and AA(attract attention). hhmm... maybe u can call it boring, if ur in the mood to put me down~~~
Easter break is here.... hopefully can get some work done.... haha, but i've only made plans to play.... how sia...... the pain n turmoil a procrastinating slacker has to go thru!! ARGH!!!! Actually, I have something I wanna post... but think i'll do it later....
# posted by emoboy @ 4/09/2004 08:07:00 pm
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
Essay completed~~ but......
Finally done with my microeconomics essay..... Still think its quite incomplete... prob due to the fact that I only spent 1day and 1 night on it?? yar, pretty last min..... Think the slacker personality of mine is back.... Last sem's Adrian, who would put effort into his work, and would feel the prick on his conscience if he din study, has finally lost the battle..... Back to my secsch & JC days??? Not good not good..... oh well, at least I din procrastinate that much, coz I managed to pack up my room...
but dun think its gonna last long coz at the rate I'm going, its gonna be messy all over again..... Sickening isn't it? How u'll nv start getting anything done..... That's so me..... or rather part of me..... Like wat I tell every1, my ambition in life is to slack... and the irony is that to be able to slack in comfort, u gotta work hard for it..... oxymoronic ar.......
The essay may be done, but thats not the end of the ordeal.... I still have ITS bibliography report to hand in 2moro..... thankfully nex wk is hols.... otherwise i'll feel so damn lousy........ juz realised my blog is turning into my bin for complains.... hmm... not supposed to turn out this way.... but then again, u nv noe wats gonna happen ever.... hopefully i'll be able to post better stuff than juz complains... any suggestions???
but dun think its gonna last long coz at the rate I'm going, its gonna be messy all over again..... Sickening isn't it? How u'll nv start getting anything done..... That's so me..... or rather part of me..... Like wat I tell every1, my ambition in life is to slack... and the irony is that to be able to slack in comfort, u gotta work hard for it..... oxymoronic ar.......
The essay may be done, but thats not the end of the ordeal.... I still have ITS bibliography report to hand in 2moro..... thankfully nex wk is hols.... otherwise i'll feel so damn lousy........ juz realised my blog is turning into my bin for complains.... hmm... not supposed to turn out this way.... but then again, u nv noe wats gonna happen ever.... hopefully i'll be able to post better stuff than juz complains... any suggestions???
# posted by emoboy @ 4/07/2004 04:43:00 pm
Monday, April 05, 2004
Finally started!
Finally, after much delays, I'm starting on my ITS assignment.... actually took the 1st steps of reading into the material, but sometime in the evening on Sun, allan needed me to proofread his essay for him... wat 2do, his essay is due on mon, & he seemed like he really needed the help... wah... it isnt easy.. so much to edit & change.. & he almost diverted from the topic... lucky!
Anw, if the webmusic thingy works, all of u shd b hearing Andy Lau's song, Lian Xi(练习, literally meaning Practice). This song has been replaying in my mind since last wk... I juz fell for it coz of the MTV, which basically juz acts out the story that the song is telling. Its about the love a man has for his other half, whos actually dying of some disease. & it tells of how he's getting used to life alone, without her. The MTV isnt really Academy Award level, but it invokes certain emotions.... Can understand that feeling of adjusting to life alone again..... guess most of u would understand it too, from wateva breakups u've experienced.... but this is prob more intense & depressing since the factor here is death... something totally beyond human ctrl.... Think we'd go thru this in futre, when we're old.... hhhmmm....
oh well, time for bed, not getting too productive in doing my assignment. How productive can i get when I'm blogging at this hr!!! haha, cya all!!!
Anw, if the webmusic thingy works, all of u shd b hearing Andy Lau's song, Lian Xi(练习, literally meaning Practice). This song has been replaying in my mind since last wk... I juz fell for it coz of the MTV, which basically juz acts out the story that the song is telling. Its about the love a man has for his other half, whos actually dying of some disease. & it tells of how he's getting used to life alone, without her. The MTV isnt really Academy Award level, but it invokes certain emotions.... Can understand that feeling of adjusting to life alone again..... guess most of u would understand it too, from wateva breakups u've experienced.... but this is prob more intense & depressing since the factor here is death... something totally beyond human ctrl.... Think we'd go thru this in futre, when we're old.... hhhmmm....
oh well, time for bed, not getting too productive in doing my assignment. How productive can i get when I'm blogging at this hr!!! haha, cya all!!!
# posted by emoboy @ 4/05/2004 02:18:00 am
Sunday, April 04, 2004
for Ed
haha, i dunno wats wrong with my comments site... enetation.com...
anyway, ed, this is for u ar(he's damn proud of winning me by .5secs......)
haha, hope this makes u less frustrated by blogspot
Ed's Penguin Game Timing
anyway, ed, this is for u ar(he's damn proud of winning me by .5secs......)
haha, hope this makes u less frustrated by blogspot
Ed's Penguin Game Timing
# posted by emoboy @ 4/04/2004 04:14:00 pm
Assignment due soon.. yet i'm doing this!!!
this is bad... my assignment is due soon, yet i have time to do nonsense.... think i'm juz trying to distract myself from the main aim here...... that is to finish up my assignments so that i can watch tv in peace??? hahhaa
anyway, heres a game i was playing about half hr ago trying to beat my frnd's record of 370++, but i only managed a 320.5..... go ahead & have fun~~~~ haha, tho its really quite lame!
have a blast!!!
anyway, heres a game i was playing about half hr ago trying to beat my frnd's record of 370++, but i only managed a 320.5..... go ahead & have fun~~~~ haha, tho its really quite lame!
have a blast!!!
# posted by emoboy @ 4/04/2004 01:14:00 am
Thursday, April 01, 2004
on a lighter note....
hhhmmm... have some frnds wondering why I'm so serious in my previous entry,Feud of Religion & Race Mar31. all that stuff on religious & racial conflict..... nothing much... juz expressing my tots.... & oso reiterating the fact that the world is never a fair & idealistic place??
anyway, putting up a pic 2day, something from my bday...
Birthday "Finale"
This was taken on the exact day, 8th of March, when my frnds came over to my place to do the whole blow-the-candles-&-cut-the-cake procedure. & in the end i got a cake smashed right into my face..... piangz.....
so far will only post this... lazy to post up more... prob will do so nex few days~~~
anyway, putting up a pic 2day, something from my bday...
Birthday "Finale"
This was taken on the exact day, 8th of March, when my frnds came over to my place to do the whole blow-the-candles-&-cut-the-cake procedure. & in the end i got a cake smashed right into my face..... piangz.....
so far will only post this... lazy to post up more... prob will do so nex few days~~~
# posted by emoboy @ 4/01/2004 11:50:00 pm
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