Tuesday, June 26, 2007
tiny island
Sometimes I wonder when I feel depressed, alone & isolated
Is it all self inflicted, or am I just destined to suffer
The quick-fix diagnosis would be that I am in denial
that I am unable to admit my own shortcomings
that I have deeply unresolved issues
Seems to be the case most of the time
judging from all the too real for TV examples
Oprah's showing it to you, Dr P is psycho-analyzing it too
And I do hope it is
that somehow I am lacking in something
some absent trait that I can blame it on
Maybe I am not positive enough
or I am too emotional
perhaps even just plain juvenile
I am well aware of its' presence
that of which I have built over the years
of which I hope would be my castle
The bricks seem so hard
the water in the moat so cold
yet it is not what I desire
All is sufficient within the walls
but still tempted to peer beyond
looking for possibilities
The chance to lower it
for those who desire to understand
to explore within
Is it all self inflicted, or am I just destined to suffer
The quick-fix diagnosis would be that I am in denial
that I am unable to admit my own shortcomings
that I have deeply unresolved issues
Seems to be the case most of the time
judging from all the too real for TV examples
Oprah's showing it to you, Dr P is psycho-analyzing it too
And I do hope it is
that somehow I am lacking in something
some absent trait that I can blame it on
Maybe I am not positive enough
or I am too emotional
perhaps even just plain juvenile
I am well aware of its' presence
that of which I have built over the years
of which I hope would be my castle
The bricks seem so hard
the water in the moat so cold
yet it is not what I desire
All is sufficient within the walls
but still tempted to peer beyond
looking for possibilities
The chance to lower it
for those who desire to understand
to explore within
# posted by emoboy @ 6/26/2007 11:01:00 pm
