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Cubicle of the Mindless

Blog.... started as an idea, to update & inform friends of my life. Had wanted 2lessen any kinda alienation, & 2save me the trouble of reiterating daily details. Now I do crap here, occasionally some personal thoughts & reflections. Don't worry, ur secrets are still safe with me. 8^)

Monday, January 31, 2005

Wisdom comes at a hefty price, $500!

What the heck! It costs 500 bloody dollars to get rid of my wisdom tooth!

ARGH!!!!! Ok, so the lower wisdom teeth din grow as nicely as the upper ones. So it requires a little bit of surgery to remove it. But $500 dollars! arlo!!!

Gonna check out other dental clinics. Always get a 2nd opinion, maybe even a 3rd.

Friday, January 21, 2005

The Long Week

Been a real busy and long week. Raymond aka Lil Boy, is here from HongKong for hols.
Supposed to bring him to Kuala Lumpur for a few days, coz he wanted to see the Petronas Twin Towers. But later he complained that the journey might be too ardous.... so in the end decided not to go.... Piangz...

Anw, will post up the fotos when i get them... Meanwhile, still thinking whether I should extend my airticket to 1year instead of 6mths. But it also means that I wouldn't be coming home in June.

Headache la.... Hate making decisions that concern limited finances. ARGH!!!

Friday, January 14, 2005

Singlehood

Met up with a couple of friends for dinner on wednesday night. Glad I turned up because been trying to meet up with these friends for sometime.

Anyway, while chatting, the topic somehow shifted to 'Adrian's love life'. How boring can that be?? None at all, so whats there to talk about???

Question were fired straight at me.
"Why haven't you found a girlfriend?"
"It's been so long since your last relationship, 1.5yrs??"
"You having too high expectations huh?"

Urgh! How to explain myself?? How how?? Its not that I don't wanna get into a relationship, & its not that I have unrealistic expectations. However, certain things just don't happen.

So I admit that I'm a real people watcher, esp when it comes to admiring girls. Haha! But that's about it. I don't go up to every or any cute girl I see & try to hit on them. I don't do that.

Even though I look at cute girls, doesnt mean the one I'm looking for has to a good looker. Me not that superficial la. In the end, even if she has the looks, but we cant get along, also no point.

Not that she's gotta be real great, but so far, I haven't met any girl whom I have feelings for. Good friends & confidante yes, but none with that kinda feelings. since things are like that, what you want me to do?? Piangz....

Sure, I do feel envy for friends in relationships. I know how wonderful it is to be in love, how nice it is to have someone there. But I'm not gonna just find some girl for that right?? If it happens, it happens..... If it doesnt, then it doesnt!


Even tho singlehood is lonely at times, it aint that bad. I have more time for my family, friends & myself. I get to go out anytime I want, since my schedule is all about me & ONLY ME.

I can hang out with whoever I want, without a girlfriend who would get jealous if I hang out with girls.(my ex hated it...) I can spend as much time as I want with my buds, without having to consider about whether my girl likes it ornot.

Singlehood has less restraints, less imposed expectations. For now, I'll enjoy being single, & not care so much about how much better it is to be attached. If it happens, it'll happen. ok?? 8^)

PS: Coincidently, I'm blogging excactly 1month before Valentine's Day. Hahahaha!

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Pls dun fish... not literally...

Sighs... I noe, 2nd entry within 1hr... Suddenly felt like posting this...

Ever been fishing before? I've tried it a couple of times when I was in Perth. Although I never had any great catches, each time I was filled with excitement. But thats not the point here.

Anyway, if you were the fish, wouldn't it hurt? Upon seeing the bait, you think your hopes have materialised. After being hungry for so long, finally something. A promise to fill ur belly.

Naively, you go for that promise. However, you realised reality isn't as simple as you imagined. Hey, its not the fisherman's problem. You went for the bait, you gotta suffer whatever consequences that came with it right?

Hoping it isn't too late, you pull away, but you can't seem to. For some reason you're hooked. You know, you see it, but somehow you're so helpless you cant pull away. Or maybe you don't want to..

The fisherman is oblivious to whats going on in your mind. He keeps tugging the line, reeling it in. Occasionally sensing the struggle, he gives in, & lets the line loose. But his motive doesn't change... He is just playing with you, pulling you in again.

You're hurt, confused, worried. Disappointed that the world you thought you knew isn't all that wonderful. Who would do such a thing? Why would they toy with you? In the midst of all that confusion, you managed to break free.

How? Maybe the line snapped. Maybe the fisherman gave up. You just don't know. Yet, this experience doesnt seem to have taught you anything. Maybe you're just stubborn. Maybe you're just naive. Or you're just sticking to your own principles & beliefs.

You lived in a way only a fish knew how, & you're sticking by it. For years to come, you'll continue to keep that hope alive. You'll continue that struggle with the fisherman. Whatever the end is like, you know you've tried.???

experience in Subordinate Court

hhmm... really attending a hearing in the Subordinate Courts. Really dry and boring. I guess its the witness who was under question...

Typical Hokkien-educated ah-beng. Obviously putting alot of effort into his testimony & answer, but the level of eloquency was still horrible. The two lawyers & the judge were all straining to understand him. The judge had on several occasions requested him to repeat his answer.

Definitely not as dramatic as portrayed by the media. Guess all of them probably dreaded the fact that they had such witnesses. Not being a snob here, but it can be really frustrating to be in court for 4 days, 8am - 6pm, suffering from such inefficient communication.

The judicial system should seriously consider getting Hokkien translators~~~ Don't assume all Singaporean can speak proper english.

Sunday, January 09, 2005

Why Tsunami reaction?

So the tidal waves came & flooded out the lives of many with its mammoth physical destruction. So you see a wave of emotional distress all around the whole. Whether they were affected or not, most felt at least a tinge of sympathy.

Why? I guess its because of how easy one can make a personal connection to this disaster.

You're minding your own business, blading along a path next to the beach. All of a suddenly, people in trunks & bikinis start screaming & running away from the beach. You turn & see the biggest wave thats beyond your imagination.

You start blading away, putting all your energy into your legs, pushing your performance rollerblades to the max. Next thing you know, you're hit by a great force & you're knocked out....

What happens next?? You dunno.... Where have you landed? You dunno. Because thats the very last moment of your consciousness... Thats how you'll die.... Sudden end to your consciousness...

Imagine that happening to yourself, or family & friends.... How scary is that.... Guess that fear allows us to appreciate what we still have, & be compassionate for those who are suffering...

Thursday, January 06, 2005

to Laugh or to Pity?

After tapping my ezLink card, headed str8 for the back seats on the double-decked bus 133. Despite the few metres from the head of the bus to the end, my wandering eyes managed 2 catch sight of a rather cute looking girl.

It was only for a few secs though, so couldnt really tell if she was really cute. From the side view, she looked quite ok. For those of you familiar with the double deckers in S'pore, I was sitting at the very end, while she sat on the seats along the side of the bus.

I could tell that she had lotsa make up on. Her 'beauty' probably came from the thick mascara so applied, making her eyes look muchmuch brighter. However, as I was really tired, my eyes did not bother glancing or admiring. So for half the journey, I took a short nap on the bus.

When I opened my eyes, I was nearing my destination. Just as I was about to continue napping, a rather decent looking guy did something really silly. Appeared to be in his early 20s, wearing specs. He was sporting a wavy curly version of Aaron Kwok's early 80s 'mushroom' hair.

He went to take a seat beside this girl, & introduced himself. Oh man! So abrupt! It was obvious to any bystander that the girl was in shock after he made his move. He immediately asked if he could get to know her & have her number.

The girl, still in shock, came up with some excuse not to. So he went on talking about something else, & less than a min, he asked for her number again. Wahahaha! She gave him the final ans, 'Dun Wan'.

He was so embarrassed, that he got off at the next stop. Malu malu! hahahaha. All I could do was shake my head & try not to laugh. But later, really felt some pity for him, & you gotta admit, it takes 1 lotsa guts(maybe stupidity as well..) to do such a thing. rite? haha.


Sunday, January 02, 2005

New Layout~~~

Finally did something that I've been dragging for some time.
New blog design. The old 1 was getting kinda boring, and kinda copied it from some website.

This 1 isn't entirely original, but at least I improvised on it rite?? The picture is from a Naruto website, so all I actually did was add in the boxes, & do the coding for the placements & colours. Haha, & since its greyscale, not much colour coding. Easy job la.

Quite satisfied with it though. Nothing fantastic, or original, or creative. However, with the effort, I'm quite pleased~~~ 8^D

Watca think?????????