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Cubicle of the Mindless

Blog.... started as an idea, to update & inform friends of my life. Had wanted 2lessen any kinda alienation, & 2save me the trouble of reiterating daily details. Now I do crap here, occasionally some personal thoughts & reflections. Don't worry, ur secrets are still safe with me. 8^)

Wednesday, March 31, 2004

Feud of Religion & Race....

Barely made it to my ITS(information, technology & systems) lab on Tues.... I picked up something I least expected.... The subject of that day's lab was 'reliability of online sources'.... If u have the time now, follow me thru this k?? I believe u'll find it interesting too.... Follow these steps in numerical sequence(ie, do 1, then followed by 2~~ simple enuff??)

1-Visit Martin Luther King Jr. A True Historical Examination
2-After ur sick of it, done with reading, or juz cant wait, search for the host of this site & click on that link...
3-If u cant follow step 2, juz click on this link Stormfront White Pride WorldWide after ur done with the MartinLutherKing(MLK) site.

Get the picture??? Well, it wasn't as if I nv knew of how some online sources were unreliable, but I was quite impressed that the MLK site was so well presented & phrased. I was also struck from the fact that a racist movement like dat was so highly organised.....

Anyway, that wasn't the main highlight of the day.... The lab instructor then guided us to more reliable sites & it was from there that I found out something quite interesting. Something that I nv knew in the past & had always been wondering about. Maybe I'm juz ignorant about this whole world, but juz wanna share with any1 else who was as clueless as me about this issue. This was the site ---> The Seattle Times : The Israeli-Palestinian Struggle

Mainly about the background of the conflict.. how everything started... etcetc
For those lazy 1s who juz cant bother to read it, here's a summary of everything:

-Its a fight for the Holy Land(the land of Canaan), which Israel sits on 2day.

-Sometime b4 the birth of Christ, God supposedly asked Abraham to leave for Canaan & claim it his new nation. He had 2sons. 1st was Ishmael, fathered with Hagar, his wife's former servant, & Isaac, fathered with wife Sarah.

-So how does all these link to the present feud?? well, Jews(aka Israelis) claim 2b descendants of Isaac. Muslims claim 2 descend from Ishmael..... The Israelis, Palestinians Muslims all lay claim to the land... so juz like how its show in all those soaps & period dramas, every1 grows hate every1.... The Palestinians? They say they were there way b4 Abraham came...

Kinda enlightening as to how pple can still fight over an issue thats few thousand yrs old...... If all that is true, think Abraham confirm turning upside down, inside out in his tomb............... Piangz..... Its juz a simple family feud that resulted from a man's uncontrollable urge to spread his genes......... & all of the pple 2day are so far removed from the actual event... They're juz bearing this senseless grudge that has been drilled into them since young..... & the result?? death death & death..... oh man... If there was a god, pls stop all this nonsense.....

So the moral of the story is,
1-Men of power, wealth & influence, be it of biblical proportions or earthly nature, shd have as little children as possible, esp sons!

2-If u are ever physically & emotionally caught in any sorta struggle or conflict, do pull urself out regardless of the reasons! coz while ur there fighting for ur "cause", other pple are juz doing more productive, substantial & meaningful things. Who are the 1s dying?? the common folk... who are the 1s enjoying life?? the rich wealthy jews who are far away from the "holy land" in USA & UK, soaking up the sun in their bikini-babes-filled yacht, smoking cigars, dating caucasian nobles~~....... dun be a CockaNathan! Live ur own life pls!

3-The phrase "4give & 4get" has timeless & ageless meaning.... do follow it & live by it....

4-Military might is the onli truth in this world.... why?? Dun u realise that they are fighting coz they stand a chance to win? U think they'd wanna fight if they were up against any European or Caucasian nation?? There were/are some cases in Africa, but thru-out the world, u see pple juz letting the past go.... U dun see the American Indians, or the South Americans claiming a right to their land & asking to redress the wrong-doings they suffered under the savage colonialist ...... The Spaniards massacred the Incas juz for gold! U dun hear the pple complaining now do u?? Coz they will not win~~~ be smart & back out when its not the right time man~~~

Tuesday, March 30, 2004

Bargain Bargain(or so i think)~~~~

Guess wat~~ I juz bought a really cool-looking poster at the bazaar over at Guild Village(this place in UWA) 2day!! haha!! actually wanted to get a poster several wks ago, but it was kinda ex, going for about $4-5 for 1..... Juz wanna get something to fill up the emptiness on my room walls~~
When we were over at the bazaar browsing thru the whole lot of posters, the guy said "tell u wat, i'll letca have 2 for $8, 3 for $10, & 6 for $18" wah~~~ then david & i juz got all excited! he was picking out several posters of different genre, mostly not dat great compared to mine~~~ my was this cool Star Wars Episode 1 poster. haha!! not taht I'm a big fan of the movie, but juz found the look of the poster in itself very very cool. & one of our frnd came along & he decided to get some too, so we bought a total of 7 posters each for $3!! haha, sounds like we're some shopping fanatic who go crazy at cehap prices ar~~~ (like those mad aunties who push & dash for bargains at Metro, John Little sales~~)
Oh well, I'm posting 2 pics of how my wall looks like with the poster, juz to show all of u how great it is!

Photo with Flash


Photo w/o Flash


hhmmm... well... ok... maybe it doesnt look that fantastic on foto, but it looks great in real life, at least it does to me~~! haha!!

Monday, March 29, 2004

the urge to rot.....

oh man.... another day in which i feel that i wanna stay home n do nothing but stay in front of the computer.... well, to be precise, I shd say that I wanna finish this entire mountain of stuff to do, but I juz cant be bothered.... coz when i start, i wanna finish it all up in 1 day... or I'll juz do a little bit of this & that... & end up not achieving anything substantial.... dun u juz hate that feeling....

But i'll not do so... cant continue to rot anymore.... Need to finish up tutes, start on some work, coz got about 2 assignments/essay due in a wk or so..... haha, but as usual I'll start off on a great note, n gradually slide into procrasination!! dats juz me! yet i've always managed to survive~~~~ hmm.... dun u juz hate such pple?? i mean i do, coz i see pple who are putting even less effort into their work, & they're having fun... & somehow, they eventually do well in studies, etc.... hmm..... but I'm not like dat rite?? haha, i dun think so, since i'm not really having loads of fun, i'm juz rotting at home~~~

Anyway, heres a brief itinery of wats to come:
-Postings of some pics taken on my bday. yar, i noe it was on the 8th mar, which was nearly a mth ago, but i juz got them from my frnds, so cant blame me~~~ haha
-Possible complains from me about the progress, or maybe the lack of it, on my assignments....
-eh.... etcetcetc??? haha, not sure wats to come, u can nv noe wat the future brings forth rite?? so till then, I'll be rotting away~~~ 8^)

Sunday, March 28, 2004

finally as promised~~~ my pics!!

heyheyhey!!
haha, finally as promised, i'm posting up some pics... hope they turn up fine, coz i'm still new at this....
since this was pic posting was "inspired" by my initial frustration & self-conciousness with my new haircut(juz b4 i came bac k perth this sem), I decided to show a few fotos of how my hair has changed thru the yrs~~ cant find much pics of my jc & army days, so u cant really imagine... but its the best i can do for now~~~ also this is for frnds who did not get to see adrian turn into an ahbeng after his cut.....

Taiwan 2001

This pic was taken during my R&R(rest & recreation) trip in Taiwan, 西门丁(Xi Men Ding). Was there as a armor trainee, on military training. Good food, nice shopping & lotsa good looking pple. yar i noe... looks like i'm trying very hard to look good etcetc.. but if u see the whole pic, u'll realise that every1 was wearing shades, juz something for fun, cheap thrill if thats wat u wanna call it... anyway those were the days, when i was still lean n fit..... I kinda liked that short spiky hairdo that i got during jc, & not like had a choice in army...

S'pore mid-2003, still SAF personnel

Taken while out with army frnds at a bowling alley. This was still a few mths b4 ORD(the time when National Service soldiers finish their svc).The time when i was on my way to leaving my hair long. If u noticed, my face is getting chubbier....

Perth Sept 2003

Was during my Mid-Sem break in 2003. My 1st sem in UWA. Went over to this island call Rottnest.... my hair was pretty long then... quite thick n unmanagable too..... yaryar, n i noe this pic makes my face look fat, but then, i put on quite alot of wgt so its not juz the pic... I ADMIT!!! I WAS FAT!!! MY FACE WAS FAT!! ARGHH!!!

S'pore Swensen's early 2004

The length of my hair was nearing to my desired length.... that was prob the last i saw of it... 8^(. Having 8scopes Earthquake at Swensen's Orchard. haha, me & my frnds were trying to look like as tho we were really really greedy~~ the ice-cream was fantastic, n it was great coz about 2scopes were choc flavor! my favourite!!! wwooo hhooooo!!! imagine that choc ice cream melting in ur mouth, ur tongue cover in its richness & sweetness!! heaven~~~

S'pore Pizza Hut, right after my haircut, 20th Feb 2004

That very day.... the day of infamy.....sighs... for more details of my emotional anguish, & physical scarring, pls refer to my very 1st few entries in this blog --> the day i cut my hair...

oh, pls dun think that i'm very self-absorbed, & very self centred or egoistic.... I dun think i wanna share out pics that have my frnds when i'm not sure if they're alright with it... no1 comment whether onot i shd do it ornot, so its best i juz cut out my own face... kk, hopefully i'll be able to post more interesting pics nex time round~~~

Brain Dead...............

This is not good.... I havent had anything thats tot-provoking to write about for quite long.... nothing that drives me to share my excitement n joy with all of u...... Somehow think i'm falling into an intellectual & emotional blackhole..... feel nothing.. think about nothing....

oh well, anyway, these are a few things i did for the wk...

1 -kinda collected the car me & david shared on wed.(technically its still his coz i haven paid my share~~ haha!!)
2 -took the theory test needed for converting my s'pore license.. quite easy tho they asked a few stupid qns that needed studying... btw, this is prob the 1st test in my life i went for totally 101% unprep! haha, so lucky i passed.
3 -lost quite abit in mahjong on fri nite.... real bad luck.... so many cnear misses that really made me feel that its not meant 2b... somehow every1 thinks its divine punishment coz i din go for OCF(Overseas Christian Society) public meeting..... hhmmm... does GOD noe how to play mahjong too?????? btw, i din skip it coz of mahjong... it was an activity that came up after i decided not to go...
4 -was a utopia juz now... amazing gir with a great voice was singing on stage..... her singing was damn pro!! fulfilling trip! & also met this guy from my army unit... he actually left for the Airforce quite early, so i dunno him well, but its juz that kinda situation, where u meet some1 whos familiar, yet not close enuff to have a long enuff conversation.... but its really amzaing how i can meet some1 like him here in perth.... juz proves my pt that "S'pore is small, Perth is small, with so many s'poreans here, every1 noes every1!!"

Thursday, March 25, 2004

Mambo~~~ its been such a long time~~~

woah.... been such a long time since i last went clubbing.... Kinda grew outta that clubbing addiction around 2yrs ago??(my army frnds would noe, kinda stopped juz after we got into unit..)
Really din feel like going.. i dunno y... not that I find it uncomfy, but juz dat i din feel that strong urge or excitement when i hear the phrase "u wanna go cheong/clubbing 2nite??"....
It kinda sets the mood for the rest of the nite.... But the mambo type music did bring back lotsa memories, coz when i started clubbing i prefered retro & top40s than others.... kk, u could say I'm kiddish, immature, ahbeng etc... but i noe i'm not, haha!!!

Anyway, met quite a no. of familiar faces there~~ quite surprised.... a no. of frnds from curtin, uwa etcetc, aiya, kinda like a mini s'pore gathering.....

The music isnt as great as s'pore's Zouk, but i did enjoy a little dancing for a short while.... I think i was high on alcohol then, rather than on the music.... sighs... think i'm nv gonna get that same kick i had so many yrs ago.... am i growing old... dunno..... dun care.... if it is then i gotta accept the cruel fact of time eating at me.....
Supper was quite nice, tho nothing to shout about, but still nice to sit down after clubbing to chat n have a decent meal....
oh well.... the most stupid thing 2day was that i 4got to take the key from david b4 going... so now i'm at sernwei's place.... spend the nite here till nex morning.. go home change a new set of clothes & go sch... nitez every1~~~~

Tuesday, March 23, 2004

Lotsa stuff to write... but...

Actually have quite a no. of things to write about.... but i cant seem to be bothered about it.......... Probably coz thingss are in a mess now... literally in a mess man.... my room is in a mess, my academic life is in a mess..... damn low these days....... n i'm getting crankier by the day......

By this wkend, I'll wanna clear up all these, n start getting back on track.... well... dats if i manage to do it..... sighs..... till the nex tmie, i'll be blogging less for now....

Friday, March 19, 2004

SO CLOSE~~~~~

OMG!!! I was so close to Broadway gir 2day!!! Went over to the Challenge bank counter at the Guild 2day, & she was there! so cute!! I was quite please juz admiring her from far, but guess wat!? When i went down to the ATM to draw money, there she was in the queue! Right in front of me!! argh!!! & the worse thing was, she spoke to raymond.sg who was in front of her, coz she tot he left his card in the machine!! wat a nice person! If onli i was in raymond's shoes!! argh!!! guess some things are juz meant 2b...... yyy!! why i wasnt the 1 who spoke to her instead...??? 8^(

Oh well, still my day was quite good since i managed to catch a glimpse of her! hahaha~~~~

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

LOST LOST LOST!!!

I 4got to mention that me n some frnds struck lottery again!! haha, nothing much, a total of $40 onli, & my share was onli $8. But can u believe the luck we have! twice in a row~~~! haha, all thanks to Sernwei ar!!

When i went for my ITF lecture 2day, was totally lost!!! At 1st things were fine.... then as time past, my mind got cloudier..... It could be fatigue... but i'd like to think that its the lecturer's ultra-fast teaching speed..... Its like driving Sengkang along Upper Serangoon road.... U hit a flyover that will bring u straight to Sengkang bypassing Hougang etc.... When u get off the flyover, SHIT!!! Y all corners, buildings & strt names of sengkang LOOK ALIKE!! LOSTLOSTLOST!!!!

& now on an unrelated topic.... It seems that as u grow older, its not as easy to make frnds as before..... I realised most pple tend to stick to their own cliques & grps..... Its normal really..... Coz one would feel very much at ease within a closely knitted grp.... & as u get older, u dun really wanna get outta ur comfort zone..... So I guess as u grow old, the need for old frnds increases.... U start to appreciate ur old frnds, wanna keep in touch more often, relieve the good old days..... Time is really a huge factor here.... My parents are definitely gonna say "see! I told u so!!".... Been starting to realise that my parents have been right about many things that will happen in my later life...... So when it comes to advice from parents, dun chuck it away.... they may nag like mad, but juz take their words with a pince of salt..... After all, they've been thru & juz wan us to learn from their mistakes rite..??? But i still think they're naggy~~ 8^P

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

yyaawwwnnn~~~~

Another blurry wk...... Struggling to go thru mid-wk..... juz saw lab-gir on mon & 2day... her eyes~~ woah!! but the moment i walked past her on the field 2day, that aussie accent.... alamak.... She's prob an Aussie chinese... how to communicate?? well... not that i'd have a chance to even speak to her & stare into her mesmerising eyes..... oh well, i'm juz finding an excuse for me to 4get about tis infatuation..... LOSER!!!! haha, but i saw 'broadway gir' yest, haha, cutecute 1~~~ oh man! wat a loser i am... muz be really bored this sem, so need more eye candy to make life in sch more meaningful~~ hahahaa

oh well.... its definitely gonna be another wk of tv-watching....... rot in front of the box...... dun feel like blogging too much now.... nothing much for me to blog about these days....... but i'll still blog, coz when life becomes more eventful, definitely more things to tok about n share with my frnds~~~

Sunday, March 14, 2004

Sunday~~~~~

Managed to pull myself outta bed to go Subi Church of Christ 2day.. Everything wasnt going in a way that made me feel comfy.... Seems like things were meant to pull me outta m comfort zone?? 1stly, some1 I din noe was gonna give us lift there. & when we got there, din even noe wat to do, so juz went in n sit down like 2 blur sotong.
since it was my 1st time in church ever since pri sch, was kinda not used to it. Tho I found the projection screen at the church extremely useful for pple w/o a bible.( prob meant for pple who 4got to bring, n not for pple w/o 1??)

Tots on svc:
-not as bad as i tot, prob coz it wasnt all that charismatic. & they din intro newbies, which reduced the potential awkwardness.
-The speech was kinda interesting, about how 1 shd have faith & trust in God. I'm not buying that story yet, but at least i'm still keeping my mind open.

After svc, kinda did something i wun usually do.... I accepted an offer to have lunch with a huge grp of pple, most of whom I din noe.... there was a cloud of awkwardness over the table.... The grp was prob less open as there were strangers in the table, & they looked tired, so they din talk much. That kinda made things easier for me since my silence seemed less obvious.
But the DimSum at Jade Dynasty was nice~~~ & finally after 2wks, I had my 1st bowl of TaoHuey~~ haha!!! my last bowl was during breakfast juz b4 i flew over. haha, muz have TaoHuey more often~~~
oh.... I oso realised i had intended to cook DaoSuan over here... but till now have yet to get down to it...... soon la, haha

Was at the lib in the late afternoon, grappling with my ITF(intro to finance) tute.... so difficult & confusing..... Reading the text makes me feel stupid~~~~ imagine a kindergarden kid reading about Finance..... argh!!!!! onli did less than half of wats required.... soon the book was putting me to sleep......

Getting more n more lazy these days..... even when it comes to blogging..... muz b coz of my lifestyle.... eat slack, watch tv, sleep~~~~ grow fat sia... confirm.....

Saturday, March 13, 2004

Days Gone By....

Another wk is coming to an end...... Seems like months, but its onli been the 2nd wk in perth... I wonder why time passes so slowly this semester.... but somehow dun seem to have the mood or strength to move my brain muscles..... My brain's probably dying... since friday, every second that passes is filled with lethargy, lack of drive, & demotivation....

Maybe I'm juz suffering from some kinda Internet Withdrawal Syndrome........ Wateva it is, I juz hope is gonna go away like a passing cloud..... cant imagine life like dat everyday......

Anyway, kinda 4got to thank pple who wished me on my bday. Quite silly to type "thank you" so many times.... so this is gonna be a simple speech.......

"I'm grateful to Ma & Pa for this wonderful day. Altho its been a great pain having to give birth to me(my mom makes sure that she reminds me of her labour pains every now & then), I'm still enjoying their care & concern. W/o them, all of my dear frnds wun have the chance to enjoy the company of such a unique individual. alright, myabe not that unique but you gotta admit, life would be different(whether for better or worse) w/o me rite?? haha. 1stly, to all my frnds in perth who celebrate my bday namely David, SernWei, Allan, Raymond HK & SG, Aloy, Damien, Qiuling, QQ, Yvonne, Mindy, Jun, Serene, June, Sengyee, Nic. Additional thanks to Yvonne, Aloy for wishing me thru icq & sms. Special thanks to Rebecca for still remembering my Bday for so many yrs.
Thanks to frnds not in Perth, Hongchang, Huiying, HuiWen, Corrine, Suli, Steph, KKK, YanPing, K.Chow for wishing me thru the net & sms. To my 2"LaoPos", thanks for remembering!!
Still a couple of pple who wished me thru ICQ... haha, but when i last opened it, was flooded with msgs... so cant rem who sent me anything..... Still I wanna thank you!! To every1 I do hope i'll remember ur bday when it comes! 8^P"

Tuesday, March 09, 2004

The day I turn 23!....(8th of March...)~~~~~

Cant really rem wat happened on Sun.... thigns have been a blur to me these few days... think I'm becoming senile... 4getting minor stuff... only remembering when to eat watch tv & sleep.... confirm grow fat!!

Here's a quick update on how my Birthday was spent:

-- Was around in sch in the morning trying to settle some sch matters. Sch fees, tute allocations, work permit etcetc.... but din get much done tho........ actually none of it was done... wat an unproductive morning..

-- Went to broadway to check out book prices in the afternoon.... then bought pizza to eat at home.. After which me & david accompanied raymond to his 1st EBS lab. Glad I went!! haha, coz I saw a pretty cute gal!! haha! She's not the typical sweet looking gir with those magnetic doe eyes, but her eyes are rather big, haha! From the look on her face, she seems quite unfriendly too. That kinda 'dao' & hostile look.. Thus I deduce that she probably has a bf. but who cares, she's eye-candy for me!! wahahahaha! Doe-eyed Ice Queen!! haha. & from now, she's "affectionately" known as Lab Gir. whoohooo!! hehe!
I wun mind having her as my gf, but she'll probably mind!

--The rest of the day was pretty much dull.... & I was actually picking up weird signals that indicated that there was something going on for that Mon. Besides Raymond Yuen spoiling every1's plan by telling me that he's gonna buy a cake for me, I could sense that they were up to something.

1)David suddenly ask me for Damien's hp no.
2)Raymond.sg was particularly interested in wat time i was gonna be home(Initially planned to have dinner with rebecca, but cancelled last min.)
3)Raymond & David were having numerous conversations in raymond's room. I heard raymond utter the word SABO. Tho David dismissed it with some lame story, I was rather suspicious.
4)at around 9pm, aloy, mindy & raymond yuen came. Mindy was still embarrassingly trying to act like everythings natural. When I asked why every1 suddenly came, she replied, "no la, we juz came for fun." haha, nice try~~ haha!
5)Raymond.sg wasnt all that tactical in trying to hide his uneaten portion of the cake in the fridge. He kept going in & outta the kitchen. & I saw that slice in the fridge when I tried 2 offer wine to aloy.

oh well, in the end, I knew i couldnt run... so i changed to another shirt & they succeeded in smashing cake & SHAVING CREAM into my face!!! argh!! disgusting man!!! but it was nice that every1 tried to surprise me. & Raymond Yuen's gift was esp totful. Its this palm size pic thats made up of hundreds of pics(prob 1cm large), & its suppoesed to form an image of my face. kinda like the "truman show" poster. but could onli see a rough image, prob coz its too small. but still its veryvery nice! & every1 shared this set of Pen/Pencil as a gift. haha, okok, I was like "huh?? y give me stationary??? u all shd noe i'm not that studious man!" & besides, in Jan when we considered pens as a gift, me & mindy tot it was boring. but I guess U cant really find anything that interesting in perth. & i think its not that cheap either. Thanks!

dats about it... rest of the wk i'm gonna be very slack.. nv even prep my tutes... sighs....

Sunday, March 07, 2004

Brief Update~~~

Haven been blogging on time these days.... maybe coz getting bored of it already??? nay~~~ juz kinda lazy, esp since I've no net access at home... anyway, here's a quick update on the thigns that have happened,

1)Struck lottery juz this wk! Hey, I'm not kidding! but it wasnt much, a total of $80+, & I onli had 40% share($2 outta the $5 ticket), so onli had $30+. Wat luck!! & juz 1 more no. away from the 2nd prize of $20k.... ohwell, better than nothing.

2)My 1st time dining in Australia's Sizzler on Sat. The steak was real good. Its rather different compared to s'pore. Although back in S'pore, there is more variety for the maiun course(prob coz a no. of pple dun eat beef), I still think Aus' is slightly better. The salad bar had more variety, & so does the dessert bar.

3)Watched "The Passion of Christ" on the same day. Its damn graphic, gory & emotional. Tho Mel Gibson may say he's trying to portray the truth, I seriously think the presentation style was subtly promoting anti-Semiticism(eh... think i kinda spelt that wrongly, but it juz means anti-=jewish). I believe they are gonna screen this in S'pore with a NC-16 rating, & cutting away some scenes. Wat a waste for S'poreans.

4)Had a my advance Bday "celebration" on Sat as well. Not really as celebration.... dun really noe wat i could call it, but its kinda like a gathering. juz a simple dinner(which i had to pay for as well. tho i dun really mind), quite unplanned, last min etcetc.... u get the idea?? haha, but still it was quite ok. At least most pple remembered.
After dinner, went over to a frnd's place, gather around for some drinks, TV, chitchat, & camera orgy! It was quite fun, coz we havent had such a grp gathering for a long time, with our minds away from sch, work,etcetc & juz having pure simple fun. No1 was really high & drunk, except Allan. haha, turned red like a lobster immediately after juz 1 bottle.
Oh well, I'll try post the pics after I get net access at home.

5) Nex wk is gonna suck.... My tute allocations are rather messed up... & the new online sys for changing tutes arent that great either...... In fact its @!#%@!$.
& my blog is messed up.... The right column is divided into 2.... i dunno y... still cant figure it out... xianz....

Friday, March 05, 2004

Religion???? Meaning of Life???? or Juz a Load of Bullshit~~~???

Dun really noe if its coz shifting out is draining me of energy.... or if this is juz some phase in life... or maybe even some kinda calling.....

Was contemplating on joining OCF & maybe drop by some church....... Some frnds were questioning my intentions... They tot i was gonna do it juz to noe more pple.
So lets juz clarify this. I'm not doing it because of that.
yaryar, I noe how i always complain(whine if u will) about how I have no frnds or life..... blahblahblah.... But thats really not the pt..... I admit I definitely have much more frnds in S'pore than in Aus.... & maybe sometimes I feel much better at home, than in Aus despite the freedom..... eh..... kk, i'll get to the pt b4 i drift to some other topic...

The thing is, while I actually went to FoTang(Chinese term 2mean Buddhist place of worship etc...), I din really gain much in a spiritual sense... Not to say it was totally useless. I did find out that there was more understand that wat i had perceived b4..... But probably the medium of instruction, teaching etc juz isnt getting into my thick skull.... So perhaps i shd put it aside, & move on to something else??
& since my dear old frnd rebecca has been bugging me(kk, not dat bad. she really juz asks me in a nice, non-persistent manner) for so long, I guess i shd give it a go??

Dun wanna have that "if only i had tried etc" kinda tots in future... Since I've kept an open mind to most things(except to religions), & I gave Buddhism a chance last sem, maybe now its Christianity's turn??
I shudder at the tot of myself in the future, an old man sitting in his rocking chair, on the brink of fallng into eternal hibernation, whom at the very last sec realise wat a stubborn old man he was & still is.... If I open myself to religion, at least nex time when I become this anti-religion, anti-GOD fella I was in my teens, I'd have justifications for it??

Oh well, I do foresee a few of my more immature frnds who'll seriously think I'm doing this for all the wrong reasons... I dun mind all the suaning(Hokkien term 2mean teasing) etc, since I noe its really w/o any ill-intentions. But sometimes it juz sucks to be misunderstood.. rite?? haha, but bochup(ie Dun Care) la! Its my life man, I'm gonna be that old man in the rocking chair, not any1 else! 8^P

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

Wat a Change of LUCK!!!!

wahahaha!!! things always change for the better!!

Within a few mins of finishing my previous post on my horrible day, things started to change!! whoohooo!! We managed to find this gir whos still selling her fridge!! wahaha!! & we're arranging to take a look at it 2moro! shiok sia! & david unknowningly got a student solutions book from his frnd.
Apparently, his frnd was gonna give him the txt & the solution bk, but did not let him noe, so we were still searching for a solutions book!! hahaha!!

& in the midst of all these, the gir i called to enquire about the txt called me back to ask if i wanted the txt. haha, since i'm on such a roll, of course i said YES!!! haha!! things are going great!!

Maybe 2moro some gir will juz walk up to me, look my shyly in the eye & say,
"ermm.... eh.... could i be frnds with u?? i've admired u for rather long......." whahaha!!!! (in my DREAMS!!!!)

oh well, maybe the following days be better~~~~ 8^)

Wat a Lousy Day.....

Sighs...... juz one of those days...... that monthly thing......(not toking about period...) things juz dun seem to fall in place at all..... really down on luck 2day......

The 1st half of the day went quite well, except on the way to ITS lect, when met this grp of pple I knew.... Saw this damn dao guy(at least thats wat me n my frn thinks) in their grp.... the rest of them all quite frnly, except this guy of course..... perhaps he juz doesnt like our face, & in turn we dun like the sight of him either..... its juz one of those unspoken things, whereby there really isnt any real animosity, but juz this natural dislike???

oh well.... dun really care, not like i need that fella to smile or anything.... & getting kinda used to the fact that my face isnt that frnly... found out that some guy actually din like my face.... The story goes like this,
The whole of last sem, i could recognise my frnd's frnd by face, n i knew his name, but onli spoken to him 1 or 2 times.... & i always found it odd as to why he seems to be so unfrndly towards me.... almost everytime i see him, he doesnt bother to say hi or smile..... at least i try to.....recently, my frnd told me that the fella once mention that he din like my look, coz whenever we exchanged looks, I seem "diao" him(hokkien term - give a hostile stare)..... I was totally shocked...... where the hell did that come from!!????? perhaps I juz have this natural hostile face...... I noe i look grumpy in the morning, but i dun think I look like dat everyday rite..??? wat do u think???

cant really be bothered to change this aspect of me, its juz me..... even if i wanted to changed, not now... juz so mentally drained..... which brings me back to my LOUSY DAY....
~~~~~~~~~~The Things-That-Went-Wrong List~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
1) 1st thing that happened was that i 4got to get the receipt while buying some groceries today.....

2) While cooking spaghetti, my white Polo Tee got stained with some pasta sauce.......

3) While shopping in city, our 1st stop turned out to be a wasted trip. Couldnt find the bulbs we wanted for our hse......

4) Crazy Clarks(this store that sells lotsa cheap homewares etc) had us trapped there... We searched the whole place for WoodGlue onli to find it a t the spot we started at.....

5) Bloody Woolsworth(an aussie supermart) ran outta stock on the wooden chopping boards.......(seriously, i think they're juz too lazy to take it from the store.... it is after all juz a miserable little chopping board...)

6) The bulbs we bought at woolsworth turned out to be bright white in color.... although brighter, it lacked the cosy look of warm white(orange in other words...).... wasted time buying it....

7) This lady I called to buy 2nd hand txt from.... well... turns out she onli has the txt w/o the student solution as advertised.... bloody hell......

8) Another guy whom i called told me the txt was already sold....

9) A fridge that we intended to view & most prob buy got sold! we lost out juz few a few fone calls....

I believe most of u would have experienced such days.... when the whole world seems to be against u...... best thing to do is juz relax n do nothing.... them ore things u do, the worse everything seems to be...... juz do nothing, slack... n stare into thin air........

Monday, March 01, 2004

School is Starting... but my mood now...... is....

wadda hell.... slept at 3++ last nite.... woke up early to help my hse mate carry his stuff from his cuz' place... eat popiah there.... then went out with the intention of buying stuff for the hse.... but apparently, the laid-back attitude of Australia noes no bounds!! the entire shopping area in city was closed!! none were open! except 1 or 2 fastfood outlets! wasted trip.... onli bought a carton of instant mee from there..... xianz.......

So tired now..... cant believe I have a 8am lect 2moro morning..... argh!! n its gonna last for 2.5hrs!!! actually wanna do the long due food review for Straits' Cafe Buffet & Sushi Tei 2day... but so tired... think i'm going to sleep.... I'll do it some other time......

So reluctant to accept the fact that i gotta study...... sighs.... bye~~~