Friday, March 05, 2004
Religion???? Meaning of Life???? or Juz a Load of Bullshit~~~???
Dun really noe if its coz shifting out is draining me of energy.... or if this is juz some phase in life... or maybe even some kinda calling.....
Was contemplating on joining OCF & maybe drop by some church....... Some frnds were questioning my intentions... They tot i was gonna do it juz to noe more pple.
So lets juz clarify this. I'm not doing it because of that.
yaryar, I noe how i always complain(whine if u will) about how I have no frnds or life..... blahblahblah.... But thats really not the pt..... I admit I definitely have much more frnds in S'pore than in Aus.... & maybe sometimes I feel much better at home, than in Aus despite the freedom..... eh..... kk, i'll get to the pt b4 i drift to some other topic...
The thing is, while I actually went to FoTang(Chinese term 2mean Buddhist place of worship etc...), I din really gain much in a spiritual sense... Not to say it was totally useless. I did find out that there was more understand that wat i had perceived b4..... But probably the medium of instruction, teaching etc juz isnt getting into my thick skull.... So perhaps i shd put it aside, & move on to something else??
& since my dear old frnd rebecca has been bugging me(kk, not dat bad. she really juz asks me in a nice, non-persistent manner) for so long, I guess i shd give it a go??
Dun wanna have that "if only i had tried etc" kinda tots in future... Since I've kept an open mind to most things(except to religions), & I gave Buddhism a chance last sem, maybe now its Christianity's turn??
I shudder at the tot of myself in the future, an old man sitting in his rocking chair, on the brink of fallng into eternal hibernation, whom at the very last sec realise wat a stubborn old man he was & still is.... If I open myself to religion, at least nex time when I become this anti-religion, anti-GOD fella I was in my teens, I'd have justifications for it??
Oh well, I do foresee a few of my more immature frnds who'll seriously think I'm doing this for all the wrong reasons... I dun mind all the suaning(Hokkien term 2mean teasing) etc, since I noe its really w/o any ill-intentions. But sometimes it juz sucks to be misunderstood.. rite?? haha, but bochup(ie Dun Care) la! Its my life man, I'm gonna be that old man in the rocking chair, not any1 else! 8^P
Was contemplating on joining OCF & maybe drop by some church....... Some frnds were questioning my intentions... They tot i was gonna do it juz to noe more pple.
So lets juz clarify this. I'm not doing it because of that.
yaryar, I noe how i always complain(whine if u will) about how I have no frnds or life..... blahblahblah.... But thats really not the pt..... I admit I definitely have much more frnds in S'pore than in Aus.... & maybe sometimes I feel much better at home, than in Aus despite the freedom..... eh..... kk, i'll get to the pt b4 i drift to some other topic...
The thing is, while I actually went to FoTang(Chinese term 2mean Buddhist place of worship etc...), I din really gain much in a spiritual sense... Not to say it was totally useless. I did find out that there was more understand that wat i had perceived b4..... But probably the medium of instruction, teaching etc juz isnt getting into my thick skull.... So perhaps i shd put it aside, & move on to something else??
& since my dear old frnd rebecca has been bugging me(kk, not dat bad. she really juz asks me in a nice, non-persistent manner) for so long, I guess i shd give it a go??
Dun wanna have that "if only i had tried etc" kinda tots in future... Since I've kept an open mind to most things(except to religions), & I gave Buddhism a chance last sem, maybe now its Christianity's turn??
I shudder at the tot of myself in the future, an old man sitting in his rocking chair, on the brink of fallng into eternal hibernation, whom at the very last sec realise wat a stubborn old man he was & still is.... If I open myself to religion, at least nex time when I become this anti-religion, anti-GOD fella I was in my teens, I'd have justifications for it??
Oh well, I do foresee a few of my more immature frnds who'll seriously think I'm doing this for all the wrong reasons... I dun mind all the suaning(Hokkien term 2mean teasing) etc, since I noe its really w/o any ill-intentions. But sometimes it juz sucks to be misunderstood.. rite?? haha, but bochup(ie Dun Care) la! Its my life man, I'm gonna be that old man in the rocking chair, not any1 else! 8^P
# posted by emoboy @ 3/05/2004 10:17:00 am
