Sunday, October 02, 2005
MIA
I've no idea wat i'm doing these days...
When I'm up2 something, which has been MultiCultural Week(MCW) stuff lately, I'm totally immersed in it. I had alr knew in 46SAR that when I'm caught up in something, I'm really bothered by it. When things dun go rite, I'm quite fedup, and that in turn kinda paralyses me. I have to switch off for quite awhile, and juz do nothing.
Weird? Yes. Stupid & nonsensical? Yes. But somehow I'm like that. But thankfully, the other committee members actually cover my arse. Eric has actually saved me from quite a few of my foil ups.
But I am enjoying the experience. I'm not sure if it's because of what I'm doing, or isit just the feeling of being part of something. Whichever it is, I'm glad I'm part of it, & if all of us do pull it off (which I'm sure we would), I'll be jumping for joy.
However, I'm still such a bummer. Academically, I'm a retard. I am not kidding here. Ask me anything about sch, my answer is simple.
Dunno.
WAKE UP WAKE UP!!
I do try to keep things going. Like trying 2 show concern for friends, keeping in touch wif them, having time to reflect on my tots etc. Yet, usually things don't work out. Effort doesn't always get me where I hope to be.
I think I'm losing quite alot in my life. Sense of humor, intelligence & friends, juz to name a few. I dunno why, but I wun say it's coz I'm so caught up in MCW, tho it might seem so.
Perhaps I'm just conveniently hiding behind this facade. I seriousl think if i knew the real reason, I'd fall into a really deep depressive state. Yet, I really wanna know what's wrong. Haha, tok about contradiction.
If I met myself, & heard my own crap, I prob think I'm a useless whining idiot. Haha, but I hope I'm not. I dun wanna keep it inside. I know things are never within my control, & I take things as they come, tho I do want them to be much better.
5 Comments:
oh adrian. i think you're one of the best of all the friends i made in oz (which ok ... isn't all that many ... still it's gotta count for something)
By 
tattletale, at
Sunday, October 02, 2005 10:38:00 pm
hey! chill chill dude... i know we all can't be as good as we think we should be. don't worry! it'll all be fine. and you're NOT a useless whining idiot. u wanna c whining idiots? yours truly will show u.
By Li-Ann, at
Tuesday, October 04, 2005 8:02:00 am
hey brother.guess who here.. very fast now october.. soon u will be back.. looking forward sia... with ken and the rest... is sometime gd to be busy.. at least time pass faster ... better than nothing to do arh.. when u come bk... i thk we are still in the midst of exam... looking forward for all those outing when u come bk...friends are easy to make... good friends are difficult.. wats more best friends... i cherish our gd friendship alot.. just like ken... do take care over there... c u very soon rite? => once brother will always be brother.. sound fimilar>?ha-francis
By 
, at
Tuesday, October 04, 2005 3:06:00 pm
hey...u've done great for mcw. dun think too much, just live life as it is the last today...:)
By , at
Saturday, October 08, 2005 1:42:00 am
just here to add some spice (haha!) well we all have one of those times when we feel crap, but that's okay. sooner or later, something will happen that will remind us that we are, indeed, useful and ahem, precious, in our very own beauuuuuuuutiful way!!
and mcw is over! yay! and successful! yay! good food for spring feast! yay! although i heard you guys had to stay back till 2 to clean the floor! yay! oops, i meant, boo! :P
