Thursday, October 13, 2005
pretty close
Look the same?? Pretty close I'd say. Sketched by Aloy.
# posted by emoboy @ 10/13/2005 12:00:00 am
4 comments
Sunday, October 02, 2005
MIA
oky... haven blogged for weeks...
I've no idea wat i'm doing these days...
When I'm up2 something, which has been MultiCultural Week(MCW) stuff lately, I'm totally immersed in it. I had alr knew in 46SAR that when I'm caught up in something, I'm really bothered by it. When things dun go rite, I'm quite fedup, and that in turn kinda paralyses me. I have to switch off for quite awhile, and juz do nothing.
Weird? Yes. Stupid & nonsensical? Yes. But somehow I'm like that. But thankfully, the other committee members actually cover my arse. Eric has actually saved me from quite a few of my foil ups.
But I am enjoying the experience. I'm not sure if it's because of what I'm doing, or isit just the feeling of being part of something. Whichever it is, I'm glad I'm part of it, & if all of us do pull it off (which I'm sure we would), I'll be jumping for joy.
However, I'm still such a bummer. Academically, I'm a retard. I am not kidding here. Ask me anything about sch, my answer is simple.
WAKE UP WAKE UP!!
I do try to keep things going. Like trying 2 show concern for friends, keeping in touch wif them, having time to reflect on my tots etc. Yet, usually things don't work out. Effort doesn't always get me where I hope to be.
I think I'm losing quite alot in my life. Sense of humor, intelligence & friends, juz to name a few. I dunno why, but I wun say it's coz I'm so caught up in MCW, tho it might seem so.
Perhaps I'm just conveniently hiding behind this facade. I seriousl think if i knew the real reason, I'd fall into a really deep depressive state. Yet, I really wanna know what's wrong. Haha, tok about contradiction.
If I met myself, & heard my own crap, I prob think I'm a useless whining idiot. Haha, but I hope I'm not. I dun wanna keep it inside. I know things are never within my control, & I take things as they come, tho I do want them to be much better.
I've no idea wat i'm doing these days...
When I'm up2 something, which has been MultiCultural Week(MCW) stuff lately, I'm totally immersed in it. I had alr knew in 46SAR that when I'm caught up in something, I'm really bothered by it. When things dun go rite, I'm quite fedup, and that in turn kinda paralyses me. I have to switch off for quite awhile, and juz do nothing.
Weird? Yes. Stupid & nonsensical? Yes. But somehow I'm like that. But thankfully, the other committee members actually cover my arse. Eric has actually saved me from quite a few of my foil ups.
But I am enjoying the experience. I'm not sure if it's because of what I'm doing, or isit just the feeling of being part of something. Whichever it is, I'm glad I'm part of it, & if all of us do pull it off (which I'm sure we would), I'll be jumping for joy.
However, I'm still such a bummer. Academically, I'm a retard. I am not kidding here. Ask me anything about sch, my answer is simple.
Dunno.
WAKE UP WAKE UP!!
I do try to keep things going. Like trying 2 show concern for friends, keeping in touch wif them, having time to reflect on my tots etc. Yet, usually things don't work out. Effort doesn't always get me where I hope to be.
I think I'm losing quite alot in my life. Sense of humor, intelligence & friends, juz to name a few. I dunno why, but I wun say it's coz I'm so caught up in MCW, tho it might seem so.
Perhaps I'm just conveniently hiding behind this facade. I seriousl think if i knew the real reason, I'd fall into a really deep depressive state. Yet, I really wanna know what's wrong. Haha, tok about contradiction.
If I met myself, & heard my own crap, I prob think I'm a useless whining idiot. Haha, but I hope I'm not. I dun wanna keep it inside. I know things are never within my control, & I take things as they come, tho I do want them to be much better.
# posted by emoboy @ 10/02/2005 12:50:00 am
