Tuesday, July 27, 2004
I'm not dead, juz lazy
Been MIA(missing in action) for a couple of wks... My com was down... and so was my mood... Not that I din get used 2 it.. but Sucked when i realised i made the wrong judgement and spent $155 trying 2 replace my motherboard....
Serves me rite for having an itchy backside... In the end, juz gave up, sent it to the nearby com shop, paid $44 for consult, and wasted $43 & a few days of time searching for a cheap pwr supply...
But even now that its up, I'm still lagging in my blogging... Supposed 2 post some photos taken during the winter hols... been procrastinating on it.....
& its not like i'm busy with sch work.... tho I'm doing some... but not really anything veryvery substantial.... u noe me.... that kinda nonchalant, bochup, cant be bothered, TiDaArPa attitude towards sch work...
wondering if I shd pack up my schedule, to force myself to work.... When there's lesser leeway for myself, and no room to "over-relax", I'll definitely do better.... Worked well in the army.... So contemplating on whether to find a temp job.... but then again, if i've totally lost that workaholic attitude i had, then by doing so, I'd juz b digging a grave for myself rite....
hmm..... see how things go... they always fall into place sooner or later... haha
I've promised myself that i'll buck up this sem... coz cant really afford to slack anymore. & perhaps it helps that i find my Corp Accting lecturer interesting, outta the other boring 1s. Kinda saving grace for UWA?? haha. Nick Newby, a queer and eccentric guy.... the mad scientist type.
But I like his outlook and perception of things. Very cynical. Really can understand how he feels about stuff. Tho I've slowly moved away and trying 2b less cynical, deep down, I'm still pretty much the same. Prob why sometimes hard to make frnds with pple? and also prob why i tend 2 offend pple unintentionally...
Anw, a couple of frnds here are falling ill.... not very good sign of things... but at least they make use of their health cover... Unlike me, whom the healthcare company depends on to fund all the rest of their claims..... Making barley water for them, hope they can recover soon.. too much heaty food back in s'pore la....
ok, enuff said.. not in the mood to blog much... juz bloggin 2 show that i'm still alive....... I'll write more when I crawl outta my procrastination....
Serves me rite for having an itchy backside... In the end, juz gave up, sent it to the nearby com shop, paid $44 for consult, and wasted $43 & a few days of time searching for a cheap pwr supply...
But even now that its up, I'm still lagging in my blogging... Supposed 2 post some photos taken during the winter hols... been procrastinating on it.....
& its not like i'm busy with sch work.... tho I'm doing some... but not really anything veryvery substantial.... u noe me.... that kinda nonchalant, bochup, cant be bothered, TiDaArPa attitude towards sch work...
wondering if I shd pack up my schedule, to force myself to work.... When there's lesser leeway for myself, and no room to "over-relax", I'll definitely do better.... Worked well in the army.... So contemplating on whether to find a temp job.... but then again, if i've totally lost that workaholic attitude i had, then by doing so, I'd juz b digging a grave for myself rite....
hmm..... see how things go... they always fall into place sooner or later... haha
I've promised myself that i'll buck up this sem... coz cant really afford to slack anymore. & perhaps it helps that i find my Corp Accting lecturer interesting, outta the other boring 1s. Kinda saving grace for UWA?? haha. Nick Newby, a queer and eccentric guy.... the mad scientist type.
But I like his outlook and perception of things. Very cynical. Really can understand how he feels about stuff. Tho I've slowly moved away and trying 2b less cynical, deep down, I'm still pretty much the same. Prob why sometimes hard to make frnds with pple? and also prob why i tend 2 offend pple unintentionally...
Anw, a couple of frnds here are falling ill.... not very good sign of things... but at least they make use of their health cover... Unlike me, whom the healthcare company depends on to fund all the rest of their claims..... Making barley water for them, hope they can recover soon.. too much heaty food back in s'pore la....
ok, enuff said.. not in the mood to blog much... juz bloggin 2 show that i'm still alive....... I'll write more when I crawl outta my procrastination....
# posted by emoboy @ 7/27/2004 11:37:00 pm
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Friday, July 16, 2004
BeYOTCH!!!
Wah!! Thinking of this again makes my blood boil! @#%@#&)#$&@
B4 i start on the story, here some info on wat i've been up to the past few days. Been contemplating on my majors, and finally made up my mind. Now u gotta admit that this is really a rare occasion. Adrian has set the direction he wans in his studies... hmm.. now how many times do u ever see that... 1st time in the past 23yrs???
Anw, I've decided that I wanna do a triple major, namely:
However, in order to do that, I realised after much planning, that i had to overload in the coming sem. So I had to walk down to the office to ask.. and i din carry much hope, coz my avg for this sem is a mere 62%, below the 65% criteria for overload...
& so the story begins when i stepped into the office. The moment when my turn came, I knew it wasnt good coz I was being served by this Indian lady. Its been said that she isnt the warm and frnly type.
So I gave her my student no, she checked in on the sys, and
@(%&@$(&# Thru out the time, she din even smile abit. & gave me the wadda-hell-u-wan look, like as if I'm a vermin. & she had to shout, like as if I like my 62% to be told to the whole world. There was lotsa pple there too... but there wasnt much embarrassment, coz how much of that can u feel when her bloody attitude was so overwhelmingly suffocating. KNNBCC. No offense to indians, but really cant stand this BEYOTCH!!!
All the words so used are so hostile.... NARBAY!!!! argh!!!!!
B4 i start on the story, here some info on wat i've been up to the past few days. Been contemplating on my majors, and finally made up my mind. Now u gotta admit that this is really a rare occasion. Adrian has set the direction he wans in his studies... hmm.. now how many times do u ever see that... 1st time in the past 23yrs???
Anw, I've decided that I wanna do a triple major, namely:
1. Financial Accting(with CPA accreditation)
2. Finance(Corporate)
3. Information Management
However, in order to do that, I realised after much planning, that i had to overload in the coming sem. So I had to walk down to the office to ask.. and i din carry much hope, coz my avg for this sem is a mere 62%, below the 65% criteria for overload...
& so the story begins when i stepped into the office. The moment when my turn came, I knew it wasnt good coz I was being served by this Indian lady. Its been said that she isnt the warm and frnly type.
So I gave her my student no, she checked in on the sys, and
Bloody Indian Lady(BIL):"NO, its below 65%, we cant let u overload."
ME:"But I've juz decided on my majors, and I need to overload this coming sem"
BIL:"NO, its 62%, below the 65% requirement, we cant let u overlaod"
ME:"But its juz 3%, and I did much better last sem, couldnt my case be given some consideration?
BIL:"NO, we only wanna see the previous sem's results. We dun care wat results u got in other sem, be it 2yrs ago or 3yrs ago, its not relavant"
ME(in my head):"narbay, u noe wats last sem, thats juz half a yr ago u @#($%&@#%(&"
ME:"its juz half a yr ago, well, then could i at least speak to Paul about it?"
BIL:"NO, I tell u that Paul will say the same thing. Dun waste his time, he's very busy these days."
ME:"well, if i cant overload, is there any way for me to do my 3rd major?"
BIL:"u figure it out urself. after u fulfill all ur required pts, u'll grad and we'll kick outta the sch even if u do 1 more unit for the major."
Paul Leod is my faculty dean, and walks out at this moment
BIL(rather loudly):"Paul! this young man here only got 62% and wanna overload."
Paul(smiles):"well, I cant let u do it this sem, perhaps u could consider it other sems when ur results improve"
I'm obviously very disappointted, and fucking pissed by this bloody indian, who seems to wanna throw more of her I'm-the-big-shot-here attitude
BIL:"See! There you go, I told you so."
ME:"sighs.. ok, thanks..."
BIL:"Nex!"
@(%&@$(&# Thru out the time, she din even smile abit. & gave me the wadda-hell-u-wan look, like as if I'm a vermin. & she had to shout, like as if I like my 62% to be told to the whole world. There was lotsa pple there too... but there wasnt much embarrassment, coz how much of that can u feel when her bloody attitude was so overwhelmingly suffocating. KNNBCC. No offense to indians, but really cant stand this BEYOTCH!!!
All the words so used are so hostile.... NARBAY!!!! argh!!!!!
# posted by emoboy @ 7/16/2004 11:10:00 pm
Saturday, July 10, 2004
Youth and age......
I've nv really considered the possibility of seeing a frnd depart this world.. Nv in a serious manner at least. However, the tot struck me about a yr or so ago. My frnd was feeling a little low. It appears that his dad was going thru tremendous sorrow, having seen a close frnd pass away.
His dad, around age 50-60, was a typical S'porean Chinese. He din have any huge business empire, nor did he make frequen overseas trips. He was very home based person, very much like most of us. He had to see a frnd go... Some1 he would have seen around in town and often keep in touch with.
The pain stemmed not from any kinda emotional distance, but from the very element that every1's taken for granted, and which is not within our ctrl ... Time.... The tot of drifting away from frnds is enuff to make me feel depressed, wat more would the sight of my best frnds, close frnds, and good frnds dying b4 me do?
I always lament about how some frnds often tend to drift apart because they never put in any effort to catch up with 1another. Busy working lives, personal commitments, complacency & awkwardness are the common excuses and reasons. Even if you managed against all odds to remain close thru-out your lives, the frnship would inevitably come to an end, like in the case of my frnd's dad.
So in reality, the concept Forever Friends is an utter load of rubbish. Its only right from now on that soft toys with the "Forever Friends" slogan on it, shd also come attached with fine prints
Bakc on a serious note, I naturally fell into a state of self examination.... I have to face such a situation sooner than i think. 10 years would past very soon, so would 20 and 30... Besides trying to my best to maintain my bond with my frnds, perhaps I shd also change my nonchalant attitude towards time & life?? After all, if it not within my ctrl, then the best I could was to fully make use of time.
Yet I've nv really cherished time as it was. The very obvious part is my youth. Since sec1, I've nv really done anything substantially significant. I actually slept my days away thruout secondary sch, and hang out occasionally in town... I was not a outstanding student, nor was I any happening rebellious teen. Come to think of it, I was juz mediocre.
Juz last nite, me and a bunch of frnds chanced upon this lady in her 50s. She was obviously a little high on alcohol, and was searching for her husband and kids. She made some silly comment about losing them, and was describing them to us. We laugh 2gether with her at her situation, and b4 she left, she threw a word of advice. "Enjoy ur time, i was your age once, i noe, enjoy ur days as much as u can."
Again, I was thrown into deep tot... so many times, I've been told to treasure my youth.. Even now, past my teen yrs, as a young adult, I'm shown this... Everyday, I'm always told of how time passes unknowningly, b4 I noe it, I've already spent 1yr in perth as a uni student.
Its time to live the moment, and experience every ounce of happiness, sorrow and pain. Yet, as much as I can remind myself(for umpteen times), I'll still end up taking time for granted. Soon, I'll juz drift along in life, as I've always done so....
His dad, around age 50-60, was a typical S'porean Chinese. He din have any huge business empire, nor did he make frequen overseas trips. He was very home based person, very much like most of us. He had to see a frnd go... Some1 he would have seen around in town and often keep in touch with.
The pain stemmed not from any kinda emotional distance, but from the very element that every1's taken for granted, and which is not within our ctrl ... Time.... The tot of drifting away from frnds is enuff to make me feel depressed, wat more would the sight of my best frnds, close frnds, and good frnds dying b4 me do?
I always lament about how some frnds often tend to drift apart because they never put in any effort to catch up with 1another. Busy working lives, personal commitments, complacency & awkwardness are the common excuses and reasons. Even if you managed against all odds to remain close thru-out your lives, the frnship would inevitably come to an end, like in the case of my frnd's dad.
So in reality, the concept Forever Friends is an utter load of rubbish. Its only right from now on that soft toys with the "Forever Friends" slogan on it, shd also come attached with fine prints
Forever is an astract term. At the very best, friends only last till death
Bakc on a serious note, I naturally fell into a state of self examination.... I have to face such a situation sooner than i think. 10 years would past very soon, so would 20 and 30... Besides trying to my best to maintain my bond with my frnds, perhaps I shd also change my nonchalant attitude towards time & life?? After all, if it not within my ctrl, then the best I could was to fully make use of time.
Yet I've nv really cherished time as it was. The very obvious part is my youth. Since sec1, I've nv really done anything substantially significant. I actually slept my days away thruout secondary sch, and hang out occasionally in town... I was not a outstanding student, nor was I any happening rebellious teen. Come to think of it, I was juz mediocre.
Juz last nite, me and a bunch of frnds chanced upon this lady in her 50s. She was obviously a little high on alcohol, and was searching for her husband and kids. She made some silly comment about losing them, and was describing them to us. We laugh 2gether with her at her situation, and b4 she left, she threw a word of advice. "Enjoy ur time, i was your age once, i noe, enjoy ur days as much as u can."
Again, I was thrown into deep tot... so many times, I've been told to treasure my youth.. Even now, past my teen yrs, as a young adult, I'm shown this... Everyday, I'm always told of how time passes unknowningly, b4 I noe it, I've already spent 1yr in perth as a uni student.
Its time to live the moment, and experience every ounce of happiness, sorrow and pain. Yet, as much as I can remind myself(for umpteen times), I'll still end up taking time for granted. Soon, I'll juz drift along in life, as I've always done so....
# posted by emoboy @ 7/10/2004 01:26:00 am
Thursday, July 08, 2004
dreams... hmmm
We all have dreams dont we? Dreams of how our lives in the future would be. How you'd spend your lives with your families and your other half. Yet, dreams often never really come true..
Not that there's some kinda universal truth that restricts dreams to the imaginary realm.. Its juz dat reality is very often too complicated.
You may dream of how you and your other half would spend ur free time strolling the beach hand in hand. The soft sand cushions your steps, both your footprints pressed into the sands of time. The sea breeze flows thru her wavy hair. !!bbzzzz!!! Nex thing u noe, her hair's gets into your face, and the beach is littered with stones, broken seashells, and rubbish.
Anyway, like I said, dreams are often too unrealistic. Lets tok about my dreams... How many pple in this world can actually live a comfortable live and hold a stress free job, with a stable income??
How many pple in this world can actually have a house in the city, but still afford to own getaway houses up in the mountains & by the beach. When the kids are away for wateva kinda sch camp, me and my other half can relax in our getaway hse. L
I wan a hse with a nice indoor pool, so no need to go to public pools to squeeze. A big spacious bedroom, with a Queen sized bed, cosy walk-in wardrobe. Bathroom with shower and tub, and a separate toilet(dun think i wanna have the smell of my own poo linger when i bath rite?).
A landscaped Zen garden. A huge kitchen with all the latest kitchen accesories. An entertainment room with all the state of the art stuff. I dream about it, but thats all it is... a dream....
Pple say that dreams can be the source of motivation, but can it really be?? Especially when you know how unrealistic and unattainable it really is?
Ok, so maybe dreams are juz something for every1 to hold on to. Someting that'll keep you going. The light at the end of the tunnel. & w/o such a goal, you could land up somewhere worse? But wun you juz feel worse when the gap btwn reality and dreams is so wide?
Well, by now u prob can tell how pessimistic I am. Oh well, thats me. I'm still go on dreaming, day and nite. I'll do wat i can to make them come true, but I'll still stay firm on the ground, close to reality... Which means when that gap isnt filled, I'll shove in a couple of old and good frnds in, so things will seem nicer, any volunteers??? 8^)
Not that there's some kinda universal truth that restricts dreams to the imaginary realm.. Its juz dat reality is very often too complicated.
You may dream of how you and your other half would spend ur free time strolling the beach hand in hand. The soft sand cushions your steps, both your footprints pressed into the sands of time. The sea breeze flows thru her wavy hair. !!bbzzzz!!! Nex thing u noe, her hair's gets into your face, and the beach is littered with stones, broken seashells, and rubbish.
Anyway, like I said, dreams are often too unrealistic. Lets tok about my dreams... How many pple in this world can actually live a comfortable live and hold a stress free job, with a stable income??
How many pple in this world can actually have a house in the city, but still afford to own getaway houses up in the mountains & by the beach. When the kids are away for wateva kinda sch camp, me and my other half can relax in our getaway hse. L
I wan a hse with a nice indoor pool, so no need to go to public pools to squeeze. A big spacious bedroom, with a Queen sized bed, cosy walk-in wardrobe. Bathroom with shower and tub, and a separate toilet(dun think i wanna have the smell of my own poo linger when i bath rite?).
A landscaped Zen garden. A huge kitchen with all the latest kitchen accesories. An entertainment room with all the state of the art stuff. I dream about it, but thats all it is... a dream....
Pple say that dreams can be the source of motivation, but can it really be?? Especially when you know how unrealistic and unattainable it really is?
Ok, so maybe dreams are juz something for every1 to hold on to. Someting that'll keep you going. The light at the end of the tunnel. & w/o such a goal, you could land up somewhere worse? But wun you juz feel worse when the gap btwn reality and dreams is so wide?
Well, by now u prob can tell how pessimistic I am. Oh well, thats me. I'm still go on dreaming, day and nite. I'll do wat i can to make them come true, but I'll still stay firm on the ground, close to reality... Which means when that gap isnt filled, I'll shove in a couple of old and good frnds in, so things will seem nicer, any volunteers??? 8^)
# posted by emoboy @ 7/08/2004 10:31:00 pm
Thursday, July 01, 2004
Parting.... sighs....
Hate that feeling.... Yet, its esp strong the past wk..... I've already been to the airport for 4times.... Outta which, 3 was to send graduating frnds away....
Perhaps the fact that my frnds are graduating is more difficult to sink in because I'm studying overseas.... Frnds leave.. and I'm in another place, carrying out my remaining yrs.... Meet ups would be so difficult....
For Rebecca, if she doesnt come back, I'll prob only get to see her once a yr?? Its already been like dat when she left to come UWA, sighs.. and now it'll be another 2yrs where me and my best frnd are gonan be separated...
For Raymond.hk.... Despite the introduction of budget airlines, cheap airfares still dun help... It's almost certain that I'd not go to HongKong in the near future... He did say he's coming over during CNY period... but then again, who noes... The future is so unexpected... He might suddenly land a job that is extremly time-consuming.... I'll prob nv ever see him again after that parting.. Glad I took a pic with him... at least some memories..
June & Serene... sighs.. another good frnd gone back to s'pore.. 1 less sister liao... had so much fun 2gether... and as much as we say we'll meet up, and we all noe we would, but we also agree that things will nv b the same again.. Nv like how it used 2b... Not as carefree, more commitments... sighs... Have to make the best outta the remaining days b4 Serene goes back...
Nex sem will be juz as bad... Sernwei and Allan graduating... sighs... lesser and lesser pple whom I can tok to..... How to survive in Perth?? Tell me la~~~ Habis la.....
If I was studying in S'pore, its prob not so bad, since its easier to meet up, even during sch days... but over in aus?? sighs... Its juz much harder to see frnds leave... perhaps I shd juz be more practical and make frnds who grad 2gether with me, juz for the sake of companionship?? Nay.... not me....
tired.... dun wanna think so much liao~~~~ Life goes on.... but emotions are part and parcel of life too rite??..... sighs....
Perhaps the fact that my frnds are graduating is more difficult to sink in because I'm studying overseas.... Frnds leave.. and I'm in another place, carrying out my remaining yrs.... Meet ups would be so difficult....
For Rebecca, if she doesnt come back, I'll prob only get to see her once a yr?? Its already been like dat when she left to come UWA, sighs.. and now it'll be another 2yrs where me and my best frnd are gonan be separated...
For Raymond.hk.... Despite the introduction of budget airlines, cheap airfares still dun help... It's almost certain that I'd not go to HongKong in the near future... He did say he's coming over during CNY period... but then again, who noes... The future is so unexpected... He might suddenly land a job that is extremly time-consuming.... I'll prob nv ever see him again after that parting.. Glad I took a pic with him... at least some memories..
June & Serene... sighs.. another good frnd gone back to s'pore.. 1 less sister liao... had so much fun 2gether... and as much as we say we'll meet up, and we all noe we would, but we also agree that things will nv b the same again.. Nv like how it used 2b... Not as carefree, more commitments... sighs... Have to make the best outta the remaining days b4 Serene goes back...
Nex sem will be juz as bad... Sernwei and Allan graduating... sighs... lesser and lesser pple whom I can tok to..... How to survive in Perth?? Tell me la~~~ Habis la.....
If I was studying in S'pore, its prob not so bad, since its easier to meet up, even during sch days... but over in aus?? sighs... Its juz much harder to see frnds leave... perhaps I shd juz be more practical and make frnds who grad 2gether with me, juz for the sake of companionship?? Nay.... not me....
tired.... dun wanna think so much liao~~~~ Life goes on.... but emotions are part and parcel of life too rite??..... sighs....
# posted by emoboy @ 7/01/2004 11:14:00 pm
